wishing and hoping hard

好久没有看到彩虹了。。

And.. maybe no one will know how upset I was today actually. Just, something I wanted and I can't get it anymore. Plans which involved and revolved around it, and now I don't have to anymore.

For a moment I was just staring blanks and wondering what to do next.

For a moment I was so unhappy because I can't talk to him, or he can't talk to me, so very pissed. with. this FACT. that i wanted to cry badly. and not forgetting, it was a nice weather to cry in...


Dragged myself to work, some how felt happier working in the lab. I should just cherish whatever chance I can have with my beloved science before I switch. Sometimes it's so hard to let go of something you've been with for like your entire education, to let go. LET GO. 好烦啊~！

Love-hate feeling yet again...


And.. my gold fishes are infected with some white spots thingy, again?! they're so fat and so cute! i dun want them to die, :(

And all the fish thingy sets me thinking that how ever did my fyp fishes survived those awful food man.. We made it from scratch! hahaha. all the fun moments. adding all the specific vitamins and carbo and what not, into a mixer. It's like making cake except we're not baking. and the fishes, while.. minority, survived still eating that food. was it even edible i wonder...lol.

right, i'm so messed up, as usual. all over theplace.. all over the place..

itchy itchy scratch scratch

my face is so screwed up man. when we study modules like immunology, suddenly everything that happens in your body becomes an allergy reaction! Think I might be allergic to some food, dunno what. swollen eyes, rash on my face (ARGHHH!). I suspect is the yummilicious scallops! which I would be so sad if I am allergic to it, sigh.. =(

Putting moisturiser is so painfully shuang. Have been applying moisturiser for almost the whole day but I'm still peeling and my lips are still red and dry. Think I ate up all the moisturiser haha.

Hope I don't screw up the presentation tmr man, damn nervous when I see my supervisor. He just got that f***ed up face that makes me feel that I've done something terribly wrong and I screwed up and I'll just get so nervous and fumble on my words and everything I say becomes really incoherent.



Having presentation tmr and I can't keep scratching my face like some monkey. Hmmf! hope it gets better tmr. Good luck to us! :)

awaits.

i'm almost done with my powerpoint slides.
Just that mere 15 minutes to show all our hardwork.
And the rest is up to them.

urgh. week 10 is knocking on my door.
more reports to be done.
two quizzes awaiting me after this weekend.

i'm going to sleep!
meeting besties in 12 hours time.
wheee.. time to have fun. =]


and all of a sudden i just feel like singing~
time to shoot the ducks.. cocoa never cost you more....



blue. nice colour.
haha.

end of report

yea man! birth of our report finally.
time for a nice sleep today.
have been sleeping for just few hours for the past five days.

going study room tmr to study for agrotech..
then gotta do up my powerpoint slides soon.

okay. bye.

dedicated

we really have this love-hate relationship with our FYP teacher. one period of time hating him right till his bones, but sometimes thinking "he's not bad actually.. " considering the fact that he is some what really busy with his work (like all other lecturers), a lecturer almost reaching his 50s you know. all wised up and and experienced but still have to handle kids like me. how unfair his life is too huh?


Anyway, gotta dedicate my time to finish up our fyp report. Still feel that I haven't put in my 100% into the project. I need 110% to get my dream A. =) finally, feeling the excitement of it all. And I maybe kind of understand the feeling Alvin got when doing his citations.. accomplishment? :)



So, give next week then. week 9 is FULL OF OTHER REPORTS and presentations due. Looking at the picture right infront, I think I should just do my fyp and heck the rest. and week 11 is my presentation how exciting ohmy~

tata-
take care everyone.. :)

myth and legendary week eight.

week eight marks one of the most important week, for most of us anyway. So is week eleven. The mad rush, the ohmygosh-we're-screwed, the week we finally realise who is there with us through the toughest times (sticking up till the end~), who will still talk to you despite the heavy competition.

persevere on!
Just a few more days of hardwork, and show really the HARDWORK we've put in so far. :)


and let's see what else week eight awaits us..
hmm.....

hana yori dango

it's 1.17AM and it feels like 11 instead.
did nothing. slept through the day, the WHOLE DAY.
still tired though.
gotta brush up my fyp report

i have just few days left before report submission, and that teacher happily just say that he don't have time and will only give us our analysis results on monday. WEEK 8 MONDAY hello?! I mean he bloody dragged the analysis results for 3 freaking weeks and intends to give us the results 4 days before submission date. which gives us just 3 days to include it in and do up our whole report.

and here i have some irritating people who keep telling me stuffs like "oh XXX told us to do this too.. not just dr.E... we have to do this this this... and she wants us to do exactly that that that. we have to do it TOO. oh and you know she also wanted us to [blahh blahh blahhh]"

what I think was the intended message:
"shut up and stop whining everybody is going through the same thing.


while. you don't have that FREAKING DR.E AS YOUR FYP SUPERVISOR DID YOU?! so shut up too.


We did our report since May and he only told us the report format in October and told us to CHANGE the whole lot. Obviously he is in the wrong. So since u started doing ur report, what? only last month?, and she pointed out ur mistakes only then, there's no wrong in it right?


Bleah. i don't expect anyone to understand what the three of us have to go through anyway. And the last thing we want is to have some people thinking that we're whining for the sake of whining. I seriously hope she get the same treatment as we have some day, then she'll know how we feel, HAH!


******

Happened to catch the last episode of Hana Yori Dango II (meteor garden) at scv just now. Have this urge to just grab my comics and re-read every single book. I think meteor garden is the ultimate fantasy-love story of the century man! cause everyone know what Japanese guys are right? definitely not like Domioji. tsk. i forgot the ending, and many many parts, shall read it again once I finish my exams next year. MG such a wonderful love story, so delicious! =D woooo!!~


And maybe kindaichi comics too. got new ones out, maybe go buy and read.. And all of a sudden I feel as if I'm some kind of a comic freak. I only have Meteor Garden and kindaichi what... =/




Oh, :( and I just read the email and got the news bout what happened to leekhim. I hope she pulls through the operation, 因为好人因该有好报..... 加油!

a very quick one

first of all,
HAPPY (twenty-first!) Birthday to Pau Ling!
hehe. wish you all the best in whatever you do. :) I'll say it every year, so you'll get it throughout ur lifetime. haha.


Went swimming with liting yesterday, and the water was really horrigible. SALTY. yuck! But I love to swim still. Just that no one is always that free ey? :( Just got to know about the isketch.net thing. haha. and i really wish i had a tablet notebook. So difficult to draw with mouse. hahaz. or maybe i really can't draw. =P


My fyp teacher decided to fall sick and then our analysis can only be done next week after elearning. Promises.. promises.. promises.. I knew it man, seriously. This kind of shit always come from him, and I ALWAYS GET IT.


Both my modem and router was spoilt. Modem was replaced, but we need to get the router if not I can't use the net from my room :( Elearning pretty much sucks man. :(

aren't you excited?!

Why today is a good day

1. It's weekend once again!


2. It's the end of our feeding trial!!

Finally.
Woo hoo.



But I'm starting to get so irritated by everyone lately. So inefficient. And all I can do is just sleep and wait for them. Literally. Frustrating. Argh.

And I didn't go for lessons today. Pissed. About some stuffs which happened yesterday. How much must you do to get me irritated, so irritated.


oKay bye.
the worse thing about today is that I still have to do my fyp stuffs. And then here comes the most irritating of all irritants - my project supervisor.


And then fyp.

And having no money doesn't help a single bit.
:(




okok, really. Bye.

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!

so many things to blog about, mundane stuffs though (hmmm.. don't ask me why perhaps my life is really dull lately. or rather most of the time)


And I realised,
As I get older ah.. the more and more I hate my birthday. Not as in the date but I just hate when my birthday comes. It's like there's nothing I can do.


Last year was already kinda dreading, this year was worse and I really had no mood. I forgot that it was my birthday that day and I was still busy doing my fish stuffs and those practicals were really exhausting :(

I don't know, somehow... I just don't feel like it is my birthday and it was just like any other day. Haha. I don't know why, but I got a feeling it's going to get worse over the years. SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME, but I don't give a damn.


Was really depressed for a few days before. And I just couldn't get myself to be happy. smiling was just for the sake of smiling.. which is quite, hai.. sad I guess.


But thanks for those who sent me the birthday smses! (:
made my day when I saw them. (:
谢谢你们! (:

and the dinner with family was really warm, and cosy... the feeling was really different and I felt really nice around them then. So.. nice =)
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oh, and my baby passed his final theory test! I hate mcqs la, mcqs are like damn super hard for me =X i think i'll prolly have to take 5 times before i can pass the test. (sigh) and he just took it once! PROUD PROUD. wahahaha.
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And about fyp, it was totally saddening today. Heart really pinch.
98 fishes died. (OMFG)

and I don't know why the hell they die!

They just died.
like tsunami.
like disease spread
or what?

And the teacher lagi best la.
MIA one week.
miss call him 999 times also no use.
I feel like slapping him once again.
***************




And it is weekend now!
enjoy ur weekend.
meeting my lovelies on Sunday. looking forward. =D

holiday weekends

I think meeting people makes me happy. To know that there are still nice people around me, and proving to me that there can be nice friends around, not just those superficial ones who talk behind your back and stuffs.



This weekend was really one of a kind, because I met up with secondary school mates and, (no hidden meaning whatsoever), it has been such a long time since I met them and chat with them, or even know what is happening in their lives. Sad to say, I think I am not exactly close with them, cause of so many reasons, but quite glad that they didn't really leave me out in their conversation haha. Or may be I was the one who keeps going on and on and on lah and they were all bearing with all my nonsense, I dunno. But chatting with them was a very good start to my weekend!





I had a really terrible morning and afternoon cause of the preparation of the fish food in the lab. Something is really wrong there, feeling nausea and having headache after staying in there for a few hours to prepare the fish food for next week. stinks like hell la.



So I went to watch The Bourne Ultimatum ( I decided to put all my reviews at Multiply) after my FYP and the theatre was really bad! You know at the aisle seats they have the light showing the range of seats for that row right? The light was extremely glaring, I think maybe they just changed the bulb or what, I swear the entire theatre was lit up by those irritating bulb. And throughout the whole show I had to cover my face with my book like I'm some terrorists or what.


bro's back, gotta go.

Being the youngest child..

Suddenly my days are just stuffed with FYP and nothing else. What ever I do I kept thinking of my project, how screwed up it is already, how short of time we are, how we're-never-going-to-finish-it-in-time-because-of-dr.evil.



I want to do it properly and finish everything. And it is so irritating when my comp is spoilt and that bleedy person keep changing the protocol and I have to change it on my report with no computer.





I have been going back to school every single day this week for HOURS. We made an appointment with this person at 10AM today, meet US. Not only is he late, he actually called and asked to meet the other group instead, while we wait happily in the lab for him.



Two hours and twenty minutes, to be exact.





And when we finally decided to go for our lunch and not wait for him, his majesty arrives. Argh, irritating right? Luckily today jac was here to rebut all his nonsense of making us run to Gate 5 and back to ac lab. (which is one end to another end of sp btw, from even furthur than biz block, to even furthur than opto centre).





It was actually alright today, we can finally start our experiment on saturday, and I still have to go back school tmr to split up the fish food.





Went to JP to deposit all the coins, and then I saw the French garlic bread from BreadTalk, hot from the oven! So I bought three and by the time I reached home I'm left with just one. Hah...I only eat garlic bread from BreadTalk. I can't remember when was my first bite at it, but it must have been so tasty lah. :) I only know that the garlic bread used to be much tastier than present one. =P





Reached home and dad starts nagging that I should stop taking money from my parents and all. :( Really sad. I will look for a part-time job then, and I won't have much time with my studies, family, or what ever. so they shouldn't complain if I don't come home. Busy ah..



I was reading the september issue of Cleo last night, and what caught my most attention was this page on our character. So it was saying, that our characters are built by 3 factors:

• Our genetics from our parents,
• Our environment, and lastly,
• Our birth order (the only child, eldest, middle, or youngest)

And whatever it says about being the youngest child in the family, is so true. Youngest child are always more risk-taking, more creative (ha-ha, maybe not), more adaptable to changes, and always bad at making decisions.

true ah.
i can't make the simplest decisions, at all. tsk!

banana lousy day

Going back to school on Saturday is a terrible mistake. What is BANANA wrong with this teacher seriously. Okay we were late, sorry. Sorry into thinking that you were smart enough to know that we will call you when we reach. Sorry that you went down and see that we're not here and left, probably didn't wait for a second at all.


You probably forgot how many BANANA times you made us wait outside the lab under the hot sun while you were happily eating at the canteen, assuming that we have the ability to pass through the walls and enter the lab without keys. And you made my friend come so early and wait under the hot sun. Trying desprately to contact the most uncontable person on earth. And you made her COME AND COLLECT the keys from you even though it was your fault that you forgot to open the lab for us.

Nevermind, our project, such sacrifices are really negligible.


You probably also forgot you made us come at eight in the morning while you arrive only at 10am and left 10 mins after that and left us to do our work on our own. Probably forgot ALSO that you are an inefficient and incompetent teacher.


You have all the rights to scold us for being late, DOCTOR. It's high time they include time management and character development for phd graduates, producing all the nonsense people and making them doctors.


It's our mistake into thinking that this teacher is actually serious about our project.

pissed pissed. very pissed!!

My exams are over, like finally. This long awaited holiday makes anyone who has been working so hard over the semester and studying hard for the exams really happy, me included of course lah heh heh..

I don't mind going back to school to do my FYP lah, after all it's my fyp. I really like my fyp, it's not the usual running of gel, making chemicals and genomic stuffs.

It's about aquaculture, something more interesting, something different, and the things I learn from this project can help me next time if I have fishes right? I mean, how many people actually have fishes at home and know why they die, what kind of vitamins they need what supplements they should have and is not given, how to many them grow really really big?

I dunno, I don't want to tell people I am at Biotechnology and my fyp project is on optimisation of some protocol, isolate some bacteria or whatever lah. I mean these are okay but i prefer my project.


But this really chicken macnugget teacher makes me really really mad and I am really very pissed with him. It's not like we didn't contact him, we did! handphone, office, sms. Seriously, he is like the most uncontactable person you can ever find in your entire life.

I mean, considering the fact that he has an office, he has his own handphone. It is seriously not like we never call him, wanting and hoping that he put some INTEREST in this whole thing.

We, irresponsible! I can't believe I am hearing this from him. HOW FUNNY. Giving us all the analyse the whole incident bullshit.


YA YA. They helped us feed the fishes, if we can WE WILL CREDIT THEM FOR IT, we will. Thank them for helping us feed the fishes for the past two weeks since we didn't know we have to and they still fed them knowing that it's all our fishes and we didn't feed them at all not even once. Really, I really thank them. Not their fault. They probably thought we know we're suppose to feed our fishes (which we don't) and probably mad at us when we didn't.


Us, problem lies with us, maybe? We didn't call him enough and probe and interrogate him and crack his head open. Yea, our fault, we should have.

Come on, if something needs to be done, it has to be told right? We asked, even though it may be just once, I remembered that I ASKED. I asked when can we feed the fishes, he said after quarantine, about one week.

Our project is the fish meal and replacing part of the fish meal with other stuffs. So he didn't say much about quarantine issue, so obviously one would think that quarantine means you have to starve them and then feed them so that whatever they are fed previously is defecated and then we can start feeding them our own diet and whatever happens to them is caused by our diet, right?

So for obvious reasons, quarantine means don't touch them. idiots will know that i thought.

But no, quarantine means feeding them with food everyday. Never feed? IRRESPONSIBLE. It's your fishes, the fishes are here and you didn't take care of them! It's your project, you cannot just push the blame and leave everything for them to do! The other group fed the fishes for you everyday, and then you all get to start your project first! Tell me, analyse the whole thing and tell me if this is fair!

FAIR. VERY FAIR.


Very fair of you to tell them and not us. EXTREMELY FAIR of you to scold us because of your really detailed discussion and our stupidity not to know what you mean by quarantine for one week.. It's alright that you didn't tell us we have to feed the fishes when they are quarantined, we should have hired some fortune-teller or some psychic person to help us predict the future and tell us what you want, we should have been smart enough and have telepathic ability to read your mind and do what you want without you telling us.


Really, totally fair.








And for your information, we get to start our project earlier is not because they helped us feed the fishes but because you were late in helping them get their feed. If we have depended on you to take our fish feed as well, we probably start at the same time as them, or may be even later.

And for your information again, we knew you were undependable. That's why we called the supplier ourselves and travelled all the way to Raffles Place to get them, ourselves.

Brought the unknown feed that you forgot to label, travelled all the way to Raffles Place, walked around to find the suppliers place, waited for their lunch break to finish, face their boss ridiculous comments, identified the fish feed that you forgot to label, carry all the 4 fish feed back to SP.

Cannot claim taxi fare somemore, nevermind, take train, walk more.


And what did we get in the end?
Irresponsible.

Not forgetting you actually said that we didn't show you enthusiasm and interest. BANANA YOU!


And you said we shouldn't complain since the fish feed is free, and so we didn't complain, it's our project anyway. But then again it's not like we don't have money to pay for the food. You just want it free, and you don't know what we went through to get the food. You just provided the name of the supplier, we did everything else.

We didn't even complain and here you are saying that we are bad students. :( VERY BAD!




He is like the most detestable teacher ever, not only does he blame you for something which is not quite your fault, the worst is that he doesn't even listen to your explanations! Does he even have ears, he totally shuts them out as if we are just trying to find excuses. HELLO we are defending ourselves and trying to explain things, are you even listening! Is our language hard to understand?

Your really terrible lab doesn't even make things easier for us. Taps not working, no gloves, leaking here and there. I have to clean up the flood for you, mop like mad and then it starts leaking again. Piping problem, aeration problem, I bet you didn't even know where the stuffs are kept.

The other day I had to clean up the flood for you and in the end I couldn't return the lock to the computer staffs and landed my really nice class tutor into a really bad situation. And then today after getting scolded by you, I still had to clean up your leaking pipes, flooding lab, and then I still have to borrow the mops from the cleaners. wtf you tell me.


ARGH. BANANA. there is really some communication problem we need to solve. nothing is helping, sigh. Talking to him is really exasperating, I really cannot be bothered with this man already.



I don't think this is considered one of the problems encountered during your project, right? diaoz.... -.-




p/s: I got this idea from Perfect10 that, so I am currently replacing all the words that cannot be said or would get me into trouble with BANANA. Kinda works and sounded pretty well, just like what it should mean and sound like. Therefore, words like f*** are all replaced in this entry. tada. my evolved blogging style.

Day 6 of being sick

I finally decided to see a doctor on Monday cause it has been bothering me for so long and I'm still not well. I actually wasted my weekends (not studying, not doing anything) and slept through it, and I am still sick.


It was really a terrible sleep I had on Sunday night. Woke up every two hours to cough and breathe. And finally Monday morning came and I went to see the doctor immediately.


Not much of a surprise, doctor says my asthma is back and I have difficulty breathing. I can actually hear my alveolar (or rather my whole lungs) wheezing and hee-ing when I breathe, so I know my lungs got problem already lor.


I told her I had sore throat and cough, and she asked if I had asthma. So I told her I had asthma when I was a child, very young. She said she will have to give me nebuliser so I could breathe easier and cure my "lung-problem".


Damn is this nostalgic. I had this flashback thing going through my mind once again, I could see myself. I was sitting on a clinic chair, or rather a kid's chair, with a mask across my face. I thought it was an oxygen mask then. I could smell the medication and the air rushing through my nose. My maid sitting beside me, and the door was not closed and stangers from outside tried to peek in and look at me, the little freak.


I hated that thing ever since.


But it made better. I never thought I would use that thing again. Now I know that thing is called a nebuliser and not an oxgen mask, ha!


So just to give you a picture on what is it about, tada :

So once again, after ten long years, I used the nebuliser again. Same smell, I think it's the same medication.

Anyway, it is actually a medication in the form of vapour. There is actually a little tube of chemical which vapourises and I had to breathe in as per normal. It is used to open up my alveoli and make it less tight.


So I was sitting down there, almost like this kid, doing the same action, hand holding the mask close to my face, and breathe...... for like 15 minutes?


I felt better, immediately. But I'm back to when I was a kid again. No cold drinks, no ice creams. And no bubble tea!! :(


I rested on Monday as well, and started studying for ACC only yesterday, of which the exam is today lah... =/


I would say, it's not that I don't know how to do, but sometimes I feel that teachers should put themselves in our shoes and understand that we, teachers and students, have this thing called the language barrier and I really can not understand what they are asking or where the question came from.


So hopefully I answered what they wanted, more or less. I was too tired to even write. Bleahs..


Talking about teachers, I am really getting sick of my FYP lecturer who does nothing but keep hinting that we're lazy and we're not doing our stuffs when he IS the one who didn't tell us what to do.


I asked when we need to feed the fish?
He say must quarantine for 1 week.
Ok, so don't need to feed.

One week later, another batch of fishes came.
so he say must quarantine for 2 weeks.
OK lor, don't need to feed again lor.


Ask him again, WHEN WE START feeding the fishes?!
He say he'll tell us.


I ask the other group whether the teacher told them when we can start feeding the fishes, they say "Don't know leh.. He say he'll call and tell us again".


And then now, the other group called us and say the teacher want us to call him. (like wtf he don't know our number cannot call us meh? why must call other group to tell us.)


And then he started saying things like, "where are you?! why you not here, why you haven't feed your fishes? the other group knows! how come you're not here?! the fishes are here, what are you waiting for, blahhhhhhhh blahhhhhhhhh blahhhhhhhhhhh. "


I shut my ears.


Seriously, ENOUGH .
You're just biased and you just ignored this fact that you actually told the other group and not us.

FULLSTOP.

weirdified by my sucky life

okay, some really tiny events that happened lately. The most recent one, I got caught stealing a lock from my school's computer lab. For a moment I thought I might get suspended.

It was really just pure fun and all. Trying to guess the password for the lock and when i finally got it i happily took it away. Of course, they found out because of the cameras and because i actually logged into the lab. Class tutor called me up and told me to return the lock together with an apology letter asap (which is suppose to be today).

Which leads me to the second thing i wanna talk about. Today I had the worst FYP meeting ever. We're suppose to come at 9.30am to prepare for a photo shoot for the cls brochure. The person only came at like 10.30am and I just have to try and find something to do in the lab while waiting.

So after taking the photos we started doing our fyp. all the calculations, and data. We started mixing all the ingredients for our food, and each feed requires at least one hour to mix. So plus all the weighing and washing, it took reallllly really long to finish making 4 feeds and by the time we finished it was already 5pm.

And then suddenly the fish tanks started overflowing with water. There is actually a pipe at the side so that once water reach a certain height, excess water flows out into the pipe.

So the water system was really cranky and i had to turn off the tap for each of the tanks. and the whole place was wet. Had to try and dry the place which was impossible. We finally gave up after mopping like 10 times and we offed the air-con and left the lab.

I haven't print my apology letter and by then, it was already too late to return the lock. I couldn't log into the school computer lab cause I was blacklisted (I dunno why either but i don't think it's because i stole the lock).

My class tutor called me suddenly and said that the CIS teacher called him and ask where am i and why i still didn't return the lock blah blah blah. I really think CIS people really have nothing better to to, trying to make life difficult for me and my teacher just because of one small lock. Going through all the trouble to find me, check the tapes, check my log in id, check my class tutor, pester both of us.

My brother told me that that lock cost the most $1 each.
DUHHH?? what's wrong with them?

They are making it a very serious case because they actually caught me. Otherwise, I doubt they'll pursue in such a (seriously) small matter.
sigh.

So I told my class tutor that I'll definitely return them the lock tmr, even if that's the last thing I do. So the whole day became really long and tired, after making 4 feeds, and not forgetting my aching body!


Which brings me to my NAPFA test.

The person (sports club people apparently) was really some cuckoo idiot lor. We were only given one try for all the stations and the second chance was only given if you fail on the first one. It was realy so obvious that she is so obnoxious because both the groups beside us were given more than 2 tries.

And then she was like "huh? you still wanna try agian ah? " and "quick. chop chop. " when I wanted to try one more time for an A and when the other girl was preparing for the standing broad jump which the tester think she took a long time to prepare. Like 5 seconds is long.

And then the worst thing was that they actually put the inclined pull-up the wrong direction! SO I was suay suay the first person and I didn't know it was the wrong side either.

Me not knowing it was the wrong side is ok right? but she's the sports club people, telling us the PROPER way to do incline and if she dunno, it is NOT OKAY.

So i tried really hard and got a 15. It was 3 times harder than the normal incline because it was the wrong side this time. SO when they finally realised it was the wrong side, I had to do it again(wtf) and i got 16.

My hand and waist were aching after incline. :( but i managed to get at least a C for all the 5 stations. ANd STUPIDLY enough she decided to let us do shuttle run the last and after shuttle run was the 2.4km run.


I was really tired and i actually took 17mins alot of seconds to finish the run. In other words, I failed. And yeah, feeling of euphoria after the run was overwhelming. I didn't really care if I failed cause I know it doesn't really matter even if i get a gold or if i failed.

I was really glad I took it with nic. Like someone to accompany me through the evening, not some superficial friends or what. but, at least that's what i think now. =) Had cup noodles together after that at fc5. chatting and joking around and had like the most toxic big glup. I think it is really hard to have times like this already, sit down and chat around. =/

So anyway, I was aching all over (especially my shoulder blade i dunno why) when I woke up this morning for my fyp. I could have rested at home right?? My ribs are aching too. I was wondering why in the world would my ribs ache, and i think maybe that's my intercostal muscles aching. bad breathing. never warm up. haha!


and then comes my homework. there's a quiz tmr and a presentation for GEM on friday. I haven't started on GEM cause i don't know how to use the program. something bout java and wireless toolkit. :( i dunnooo.. which is bad cause the presentation constitutes 40% of the grade.

i have also decided to hand in my acc report on monday instead of this friday. I"m really aching all over. gn.

Something magical

Orange bags all over, I see them everywhere I go. And I feel so sour not carrying them, actually, more sour not being able to read them. It's sitting nicely on Jermaine's table, and I can't read them! I need to do my reports...........

I shall read them next week. Or when jermaine's finished reading them.

Do you know how fast singaporeans can read nowadays? Just barely afternoon and I saw this girl at macdonalds already at half the book! Sigh.. Can't run fast, can't read fast, can't study fast. I ask myself what am I good at...


And in case you still don't know what I'm talking about, it is the Deathly Hallows, Harry Potter ya? Ooooo... can't wait to read it. So excited!!



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Went to watch Transformers today. Yes, it was really a good show like everyone said. Even after sooo many days, i finally watched it. And the theatres were packed till the first row okay! that's how good the show is.

Watching the show, I really felt I was young and small. Like tiny tiny small, still watching infront of a really big tv. It really feels good being able to go back to the good old days, giving my full attention to the tv.

hahas. Seriously, I almost wanted to shout out when the Bumblebee won. Like, WooOOOOo! yea man! Yeah.. but the theatre was really quiet and nobody was really talking. Hahs.


Harry Potter last tuesday, midnight show =D Yes, harry potter frenzy once again.. UH! GIVE ME MORE TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Oh, have you watched the commercials for Even Almighty and Rush Hour 3? They are so funny! i'm going to watch them. =D

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We finally got a start on our final year proj. We got our fish food, though not really enough, and our fishes will be coming in next week. Hopefully, 500g would be enough.... =X Hopefully.


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Oh, today marks the one and a half year we've been together. I kept having a hunch we'll leave each other one day. This sounds so ever stupid whenever I was with him and we were so happy with each other. And when I'm alone, I really felt this way. Like, I don't really what matters anymore.

:(

Anyway, what is important is knowing what I have and cherish them, I guess.. At least for now :)

You know, I used to receive smses from friends, and one of them reads:

Friends are like stars, precious and hard to come by. And even if you can't see them, they are always there.

May be even falling stars? They come and go. They slip away, before you even know it. How many stars can one actually hold, stars that will always be there.




Happy one and a half years baby. They were really happy days. =D
More to come! :)
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I think I'm going to call my dog BBQ next time. like baby-Q sound alike, BB-Q. you know? :)