Oh my my. Such an overwhelming feeling reading my past few posts. Was it 6 months ago when I was rushing to get results and busy writing my (mini) thesis? It seems so distant, yet all the emotions of those times are still vivid in my mind.
Oh well, everything just seems like "done with" now. Another phase of my life. I'm glad I went overseas, seriously. There are countless of people I know who just feel that Australia's degree is 用钱买的文凭 (can be bought with money), I feel that one should never live their life in regrets. The things I've learnt, I feel, can never be learnt in an environment I'm so comfortable with and used to. It's just an unexplainable entrance into adulthood? I've realised I wasn't as 'adult' as I thought I used to be, and I wasn't as adaptable I thought I was. I mean, how 'adult' can one person be?
There were so many reasons why I went overseas to study. I'll admit that I am quite an escapist. I tend to flee when a problem arises, and when I left I was trying to untie myself and be free from this unhappy place (at that time).
One thing I've learnt, was definitely the fact that "things could have been worse".
There's no escaping when you're in another country. I mean, you're escaping from the place you're escaping to? It just feels weird, the way I see it.
So, everything went pretty well. Started off with a bad patch, but everything went well eventually. I won't be greedy, I am indeed happy with the way things are right now. Friends, family, job (ok, too early to say).
Yes, happiness is such a rare commodity, try and do something and not wait for the problems to fix themselves. The trickiest part I feel, is those that you can't control, like Feelings, Luck, the people you are forced to work/live with.
I'm not sure if I've made the right move by ridding off the people that were making my life horrible, in my definition, people who are not worth it. There was a choice, where I think I could have probably changed myself and accommodate them (together with all their nonsense and shit), but I chose the easy way of just cutting them off. Of course I felt it was the right thing to do then, but sometimes there's 'what ifs' going through your mind, and I wonder if my life would have had been any different. Can I be any happier or contented as I am now?
Ok I am so sian of writing emo stuffs now. i'm gonna stop.
So.. was having a shitty day at work yesterday, kept doing all the wrong stuffs. Not that it was fatal, but i'm just disgusted at how incompetent i am. What I hated most is people getting blamed because of my mistakes. Eventhough I do get scolded after that as well too lah.
Decided to go sing. or scream, rather. Quite therapeutic.
So, i'm going to share the 5 things that I tend to do when I need to 'get high'. in order of how serious things are. Not sure if I have this list once upon a time..
1) Bubble tea. It's the sugar high, although I order 25% sugar level now. Effect is almost instantaneous. Tip: Always get the best bubble tea in the area, like duh?!
2) Chocolates and coffe. Helps increase the level of endorphins in your body. Think chemistry! May cause increased heart rate and jittery. So.... not ideal before exam or interview.
3) Shopping. My personal preference is shoes. I get frustrated shopping for bags, and clothes. So it might backfire, sometimes. Buying shoes is just easier.
4) Kbox. Sometimes you just need to scream it out, or just enjoy singing! I think singing is a good stress reliever!
5) Facial. This is tricky, but it works. Things are always better when you feel prettier. Statistic shows, that 87% of people feel more confident when they look prettier. true story. *hahahahaha*
Ok buh bye.
maybe i'll post some pictures next time.
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Wednesday, August 01, 2007
weirdified by my sucky life
okay, some really tiny events that happened lately. The most recent one, I got caught stealing a lock from my school's computer lab. For a moment I thought I might get suspended.
It was really just pure fun and all. Trying to guess the password for the lock and when i finally got it i happily took it away. Of course, they found out because of the cameras and because i actually logged into the lab. Class tutor called me up and told me to return the lock together with an apology letter asap (which is suppose to be today).
Which leads me to the second thing i wanna talk about. Today I had the worst FYP meeting ever. We're suppose to come at 9.30am to prepare for a photo shoot for the cls brochure. The person only came at like 10.30am and I just have to try and find something to do in the lab while waiting.
So after taking the photos we started doing our fyp. all the calculations, and data. We started mixing all the ingredients for our food, and each feed requires at least one hour to mix. So plus all the weighing and washing, it took reallllly really long to finish making 4 feeds and by the time we finished it was already 5pm.
And then suddenly the fish tanks started overflowing with water. There is actually a pipe at the side so that once water reach a certain height, excess water flows out into the pipe.
So the water system was really cranky and i had to turn off the tap for each of the tanks. and the whole place was wet. Had to try and dry the place which was impossible. We finally gave up after mopping like 10 times and we offed the air-con and left the lab.
I haven't print my apology letter and by then, it was already too late to return the lock. I couldn't log into the school computer lab cause I was blacklisted (I dunno why either but i don't think it's because i stole the lock).
My class tutor called me suddenly and said that the CIS teacher called him and ask where am i and why i still didn't return the lock blah blah blah. I really think CIS people really have nothing better to to, trying to make life difficult for me and my teacher just because of one small lock. Going through all the trouble to find me, check the tapes, check my log in id, check my class tutor, pester both of us.
My brother told me that that lock cost the most $1 each.
DUHHH?? what's wrong with them?
They are making it a very serious case because they actually caught me. Otherwise, I doubt they'll pursue in such a (seriously) small matter.
sigh.
So I told my class tutor that I'll definitely return them the lock tmr, even if that's the last thing I do. So the whole day became really long and tired, after making 4 feeds, and not forgetting my aching body!
Which brings me to my NAPFA test.
The person (sports club people apparently) was really some cuckoo idiot lor. We were only given one try for all the stations and the second chance was only given if you fail on the first one. It was realy so obvious that she is so obnoxious because both the groups beside us were given more than 2 tries.
And then she was like "huh? you still wanna try agian ah? " and "quick. chop chop. " when I wanted to try one more time for an A and when the other girl was preparing for the standing broad jump which the tester think she took a long time to prepare. Like 5 seconds is long.
And then the worst thing was that they actually put the inclined pull-up the wrong direction! SO I was suay suay the first person and I didn't know it was the wrong side either.
Me not knowing it was the wrong side is ok right? but she's the sports club people, telling us the PROPER way to do incline and if she dunno, it is NOT OKAY.
So i tried really hard and got a 15. It was 3 times harder than the normal incline because it was the wrong side this time. SO when they finally realised it was the wrong side, I had to do it again(wtf) and i got 16.
My hand and waist were aching after incline. :( but i managed to get at least a C for all the 5 stations. ANd STUPIDLY enough she decided to let us do shuttle run the last and after shuttle run was the 2.4km run.
I was really tired and i actually took 17mins alot of seconds to finish the run. In other words, I failed. And yeah, feeling of euphoria after the run was overwhelming. I didn't really care if I failed cause I know it doesn't really matter even if i get a gold or if i failed.
I was really glad I took it with nic. Like someone to accompany me through the evening, not some superficial friends or what. but, at least that's what i think now. =) Had cup noodles together after that at fc5. chatting and joking around and had like the most toxic big glup. I think it is really hard to have times like this already, sit down and chat around. =/
So anyway, I was aching all over (especially my shoulder blade i dunno why) when I woke up this morning for my fyp. I could have rested at home right?? My ribs are aching too. I was wondering why in the world would my ribs ache, and i think maybe that's my intercostal muscles aching. bad breathing. never warm up. haha!
and then comes my homework. there's a quiz tmr and a presentation for GEM on friday. I haven't started on GEM cause i don't know how to use the program. something bout java and wireless toolkit. :( i dunnooo.. which is bad cause the presentation constitutes 40% of the grade.
i have also decided to hand in my acc report on monday instead of this friday. I"m really aching all over. gn.
It was really just pure fun and all. Trying to guess the password for the lock and when i finally got it i happily took it away. Of course, they found out because of the cameras and because i actually logged into the lab. Class tutor called me up and told me to return the lock together with an apology letter asap (which is suppose to be today).
Which leads me to the second thing i wanna talk about. Today I had the worst FYP meeting ever. We're suppose to come at 9.30am to prepare for a photo shoot for the cls brochure. The person only came at like 10.30am and I just have to try and find something to do in the lab while waiting.
So after taking the photos we started doing our fyp. all the calculations, and data. We started mixing all the ingredients for our food, and each feed requires at least one hour to mix. So plus all the weighing and washing, it took reallllly really long to finish making 4 feeds and by the time we finished it was already 5pm.
And then suddenly the fish tanks started overflowing with water. There is actually a pipe at the side so that once water reach a certain height, excess water flows out into the pipe.
So the water system was really cranky and i had to turn off the tap for each of the tanks. and the whole place was wet. Had to try and dry the place which was impossible. We finally gave up after mopping like 10 times and we offed the air-con and left the lab.
I haven't print my apology letter and by then, it was already too late to return the lock. I couldn't log into the school computer lab cause I was blacklisted (I dunno why either but i don't think it's because i stole the lock).
My class tutor called me suddenly and said that the CIS teacher called him and ask where am i and why i still didn't return the lock blah blah blah. I really think CIS people really have nothing better to to, trying to make life difficult for me and my teacher just because of one small lock. Going through all the trouble to find me, check the tapes, check my log in id, check my class tutor, pester both of us.
My brother told me that that lock cost the most $1 each.
DUHHH?? what's wrong with them?
They are making it a very serious case because they actually caught me. Otherwise, I doubt they'll pursue in such a (seriously) small matter.
sigh.
So I told my class tutor that I'll definitely return them the lock tmr, even if that's the last thing I do. So the whole day became really long and tired, after making 4 feeds, and not forgetting my aching body!
Which brings me to my NAPFA test.
The person (sports club people apparently) was really some cuckoo idiot lor. We were only given one try for all the stations and the second chance was only given if you fail on the first one. It was realy so obvious that she is so obnoxious because both the groups beside us were given more than 2 tries.
And then she was like "huh? you still wanna try agian ah? " and "quick. chop chop. " when I wanted to try one more time for an A and when the other girl was preparing for the standing broad jump which the tester think she took a long time to prepare. Like 5 seconds is long.
And then the worst thing was that they actually put the inclined pull-up the wrong direction! SO I was suay suay the first person and I didn't know it was the wrong side either.
Me not knowing it was the wrong side is ok right? but she's the sports club people, telling us the PROPER way to do incline and if she dunno, it is NOT OKAY.
So i tried really hard and got a 15. It was 3 times harder than the normal incline because it was the wrong side this time. SO when they finally realised it was the wrong side, I had to do it again(wtf) and i got 16.
My hand and waist were aching after incline. :( but i managed to get at least a C for all the 5 stations. ANd STUPIDLY enough she decided to let us do shuttle run the last and after shuttle run was the 2.4km run.
I was really tired and i actually took 17mins alot of seconds to finish the run. In other words, I failed. And yeah, feeling of euphoria after the run was overwhelming. I didn't really care if I failed cause I know it doesn't really matter even if i get a gold or if i failed.
I was really glad I took it with nic. Like someone to accompany me through the evening, not some superficial friends or what. but, at least that's what i think now. =) Had cup noodles together after that at fc5. chatting and joking around and had like the most toxic big glup. I think it is really hard to have times like this already, sit down and chat around. =/
So anyway, I was aching all over (especially my shoulder blade i dunno why) when I woke up this morning for my fyp. I could have rested at home right?? My ribs are aching too. I was wondering why in the world would my ribs ache, and i think maybe that's my intercostal muscles aching. bad breathing. never warm up. haha!
and then comes my homework. there's a quiz tmr and a presentation for GEM on friday. I haven't started on GEM cause i don't know how to use the program. something bout java and wireless toolkit. :( i dunnooo.. which is bad cause the presentation constitutes 40% of the grade.
i have also decided to hand in my acc report on monday instead of this friday. I"m really aching all over. gn.
Monday, May 14, 2007
tongue
ah!
i just fell off (or rolled off) my chair and bit my tongue!
it's bleeding frm the top and bottom..
omgg.....
i just fell off (or rolled off) my chair and bit my tongue!
it's bleeding frm the top and bottom..
omgg.....
Sunday, January 07, 2007
I am so cursed today!
it was just 15 MINUTES and i feel like I'm cursed for the rest of the day.
like, woman's instinct.
7th JANUARY 2007.
something is telling me i shouldn't go out today
:(
but a promise is a promise
I hate to fly people aeroplane.
would anyone actually believe
"oh, i feel unlucky today. I'm not going out." ?
HAHAHA.
actually, quite funny.
should try it on someone i hate, someday..
--
message to kiong:
Yes.
i think i sprayed the whole can of insecticide on my bags, my room, and the cockroach.
now my newly mopped bedroom is filled with aerosols and grease.
:(
Really time to get insecticide.
this one quite good.
how how?! less than 2 days to finish up my homework.
no need to be cursed for that.
like, woman's instinct.
7th JANUARY 2007.
something is telling me i shouldn't go out today
:(
but a promise is a promise
I hate to fly people aeroplane.
would anyone actually believe
"oh, i feel unlucky today. I'm not going out." ?
HAHAHA.
actually, quite funny.
should try it on someone i hate, someday..
--
message to kiong:
Ah!! dear, i just found one of my bag infested with ants!! and their eggs! and when i went out to throw the bag, i saw your irky distant relative(cockroach), and when i went to print the info sheet for ayuen's assignment, the paper jammed!! and when i print my report, i got paper cut! i'm cursed on 7th jan!--
Yes.
i think i sprayed the whole can of insecticide on my bags, my room, and the cockroach.
now my newly mopped bedroom is filled with aerosols and grease.
:(
Really time to get insecticide.
this one quite good.
how how?! less than 2 days to finish up my homework.
no need to be cursed for that.
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
yesterday wasn't a good day afterall
Things i've lost.
wallet - $5 ?
IC - $100
ATM/Debit card - $10
Tertiary card - $10 (i bet it's more than this)
Library card - $10
Phone card - $2
Passioncard - $18
money - $ 7+/-
Tigerbeer card from kiong - priceless
happy times with kiong - priceless
everything else - priceless
him?
on the brighter side,
i can't wait for this weekend.
but i should just go report on my lost wallet.
staffs from CCK station are damn unhelpful
i'm so going to complain them.
wallet - $5 ?
IC - $100
ATM/Debit card - $10
Tertiary card - $10 (i bet it's more than this)
Library card - $10
Phone card - $2
Passioncard - $18
money - $ 7+/-
Tigerbeer card from kiong - priceless
happy times with kiong - priceless
everything else - priceless
him?
on the brighter side,
i can't wait for this weekend.
but i should just go report on my lost wallet.
staffs from CCK station are damn unhelpful
i'm so going to complain them.
maybe i'll just stay at home for a while first..
Friday, November 10, 2006
what a bad feeling :(
Kept having this feeling that I screwed up my life
screwed up my poly life
Feeling so lousy
Didn't know Biotech was so tough
wished i was somewhere else
fly away on my zephyr~
no motivation to study
no motivation to finish up my reports
no motivation to do the crossword puzzle
i think i just screwed up my poly life
what's new?
again.
screwed up my poly life
Feeling so lousy
Didn't know Biotech was so tough
wished i was somewhere else
fly away on my zephyr~
no motivation to study
no motivation to finish up my reports
no motivation to do the crossword puzzle
i think i just screwed up my poly life
what's new?
again.
how can people be so unsincere
how can people be so selfish
how can i enjoy my life
how can i get out of sp
how can i get away..
talk about Life being a vacuum cleaner;
it really sucks.
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