You never know when it's the last time you do something, until it is too late.

SO that was some pretty awesome three-month rest.

Lyn says I am busy for a jobless person.. Haha. I am (was), indeed!

Germany

For the first two weeks I actually went for a holiday with Jer to Germany. That was really an ADVENTURE. It all started last year when Ain just texted me to say there's a promotion going on for Lufthansa, so I just booked the tickets the same day. I probably have already decided on leaving the blood bank then.

I then told Jer, who was pretty depressed that day due to work stress, that I am quitting my job and planning for my trip to Germany. And she said she wants to join me and go Germany! Booked her tickets as well within the same hour, I think. No wonder I love her.

So.. that went well.


March was supposedly the start of Spring, but the temperature was still -5 to 0 degrees in Germany. And somehow we got hit by blizzard during out stop-over in Frankfurt, and our connecting flight got cancelled.

How exciting right?!

All I could think of at that time was how lucky I am that Jer is around with me :))

We had to either wait for 10 hours for the next flight, or switch our flight to a train to get to Tubingen. We decided to take the train, cos' we were freezing and we don't want to stay in the airport for so long!

Turns out we did have to stay in the airport for quite some time still, because they decided to transfer our baggage to the next FLIGHT, when we already told them that we are taking the train. Which resulted in us waiting by the belt and running around the airport/train station for more than 6 hours to get our luggage.

I concluded after the trip that Frankfurt might not belong to Germany because they absolutely do not have the qualities that fits the German image. Late trains, cancelled flights, wrong platforms, careless and inefficient service. This is not Germany.

It was fortunate (or not) that we took the train because the subsequent flight also got cancelled!

We finally reached Tubingen at 5pm, instead of 9am. Super tired from all the dramas, but still have enough energy to get my BB prepaid and some H&M shopping!!


The rest of the trip was really fun, although traveling did take a toll on our bodies and half the time we were really cold and grumpy. But nothing beats meeting up with a friend studying overseas, and walking along new streets in a new city/country.

First snow experience! view from Ain's window.

Ritter Sport Museum at Stuttgart

Visited the famous Disney castle, Schloss Neuschwanstein, in Schwangau

Munich City

Got lost in the humongous Englischer Garten, Munich.

Englischer Garten

Englischer Garten

Pictures taken from a viewing tower in Munich.

Berlin's Brandenburg Gate

In the middle of the Holocaust Memorial, Berlin

Not forgetting the Berlin wall!

 

Visited the East Side Gallery, another part of the Berlin Wall.

First Snowman! :)

Also went to the wealthy Hamburg city!

Visited the grand Hohenzollern Castle in Stuttgart, the only castle still owned by the Hohenzollern family.

And that's a nice picture of the three of us at Hohenzollern!

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BABY-SITTING

After the trip, I just bummed around at home. And a few days later, I started babysitting for my pregnant sister. It was so enjoyable playing with my niece! Good practice for the future too, haha.

I mean I used to always think some moms are really crazy that they can differentiate what the baby wants. Cos' the baby is just going like "meh meh meh." or "maaa maa ma maaaaa", and they will go "OH..She is very hungry. She is asking you to feed her milk now".

I mean, what are the possibilities that your baby wants you to cook chicken rice for her?! of course it's either she's hungry or sleepy or uncomfortable right?!  The sounds that they make all just sound the same to me lor.


BUT, after a few weeks with her, hahaaha....I can really tell what she wants, or what she is trying to say. Or at least I think I do.  She just go "shhh shhh shhh", and  I know she wants me to sing Wheels on the Bus. Or she will go "daaahhhhh" meaning Twinkle twinkle little star. Or "shhherrrr" meaning Treasure!

Like how freaky is this! And I am pretty sure it doesn't mean anything if she says this to other people cos' it is really just baby talk.

But yeah, OK, I get it, have to reserve my judgement next time when I see babies go "bababa" and the mom goes "daddy please go and get some barley for her, she wants to drink barley, hot one,without barley, no ice "

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TUITION
Started tutoring again! It is damn far lor. But I think I kinda like traveling around different parts of Singapore, often, just for the fun of it and familiarizing myself.

Sometimes I feel like I don't really know Singapore, cos' just a few months ago I still though Pasir Panjang is near Bukit Panjang. SIGH............

But yeah! Tutoring is good practice for future too! And it is really quite fun =D

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I took up Spanish with Nicole!!  HOLA! ¿Cómo estás?

It actually started in Germany when we met a Spanish girl and a Mexican girl in Munich, and I was discussing with Jer the language we would want to learn if we have the time, and we both agreed on Spanish! (of course she have already learned Japanese, so Spanish is after Japanese for her)

German is just too difficult for me, and it just sounds nicer, than speaking it.

And somehow, fate or destiny caught up, and Nic texted me to see if I am interested to learn a new language.

Awesome...

So.. yar lor, español it is! Getting really confusing these few weeks! I wouldn't be able to understand if i watch a show in spanish for sure, haha. It would be awesome if i could stay in Spain or S.America to just live IN the language. :)

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DRIVING! 

Like for goodness-sake, finally!

I had to go for an eye test (due to my lazy eye) just to apply for a PDL. 

The first time I wanted to learn was before I went to UQ, and I failed the test immediately cos' they require me to have a doctor's letter. 

Like OMG. ultimate fail, you all can not win me. It's not even the basic theory yet, and I failed the APPLICATION process. Bet you guys didn't know you can fail even before applying, haha!

So the 2nd time was this year. I already got my doctor's letter from NUH eye clinic when I was still working in NUH. But this time, BBDC said that the letter must be written within 3 months, and they actually want to see "fit for driving" in the letter. My doctor wrote "eye sight is good". Not good enough for BBDC apparently, Sigh!

SO.. I had to go and see the eye doctor again, get her to write "fit for driving" and go back BBDC. 

This doctor, being a doctor, is damn rubbish. Even after telling her that I need her to write "fit for driving" exactly, guess what she wrote?

"Eyesight meets the criteria required for Level 4 license"

Literally wanted to bang my head against the wall. 

Anyways, I went to BBDC again to try my luck, and fortunately they accepted it. HENG AH!

So, I got my PDL.  YAY!

Reallly, HAISH... it's not even an actual license and I already have to go through all these shit.

But so far, driving was fun. Hehe. My instructor is really good and very patient with me so far. Hoping for one-time pass! Really can not afford to, and don't want to, apply for PDL again!

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NEW JOB

Got a new job after a few difficult interviews. I have started for almost a month actually. 

It's funny how fate works.

I was happy with just a diploma initially, cos I really have had enough of studying after going to SP.

But without working in Quest, I wouldn't have thought I would actually want to get a degree.

If I haven't went to UQ, I wouldn't know how enjoyable studying is, and there is indeed a difference between studying and learning. 

And the classic, if I haven't worked in the blood bank, I wouldn't have know I am blood type B instead of type-O, like what my mom have been telling me for the past 24 years. 

I actually had an epiphany on this, and that people can only say and tell you what you are, but you may not be it!
 

I feel like I wouldn't trade anything to change my past now. It's perfect the way it worked out now. The people I have met, friends I have made, friends I have lost, friends I have kept close..

I actually don't think I would ever want go back to the lab again. At least not a Singapore lab.

I can't remember when was the last gel I made, or ran. 

I can't remember the last time I held a pipette, or the last time I did streaking. 

You never know until it is too late right?

maybe i will never wear gloves again, or hold a test tube . 

maybe i will never touch an electrophoresis tank again. 

Maybe this is what it's like to be growing up.

Of leave, teeth and bliss

surprisingly, i woke up earlier than the usual days when i was working. haha.

bro came back home in the morning. long time since i last saw him! miss him so much.. so.. better wake up and see him. haha. bros went JB today loh! forgot their sister.. :(

but i also dun wanna go. haha. hard to get my leave loh..

packed my room a little..
finally started watching HouseMD. Woahh.. not bad not bad :)
then... went for my dental.. 
it was only 1hr, super fast! you can really see the diff between specialised and non-specialised. But I feel that it was more sloppy la.. But I guess it's okay to be sloppy cos' there will be a follow up in a few weeks time?

heh..
so anyway, ugh.. dental appt is always so embarrassing.... my teeth is so ugly.. and my cavities.. my root canals.. my gaps. Half my mouth was anesthetized this time, and then I kept drooling on my way out..

oh my tian.. very embarrassed cos' the clinic was full house!
so..
sigh. I was shopping while my mouth was half numbed. Tissue at hand to dab on the drool.
No image already.
I was sooo glad that it was far farrrr away frm my neighbourhood.

shopping was... hmm..
fun.
haha! but so hard to choooose... :(
there was a lot of time when I just stood there and stared at those selections, thinking which one to buy..i stared and stared like it was a difficult math question.

but it was all worth it.
this is what shopping is all about right?? :D

I'm secretly proud of myself for not succumbing to those temptations. Wahaha... but really felt sad when I walked away from those....pretties. But happy now. Haha.. happy for my wallet.

Oh! i realised.. i love buying hair accessories and stationery.
hehe. :P I love cute pretty pens and rulers and pencils! :)


anyway, halfway through the shopping, ah dear msged me that he will be on leave from tmr till tues!!!!!!!


that really made my day!
at least someone up there was trying to salvage my wrecked life lately.



best news of the day  ^.^

and then.
some people just enjoy putting others in misery.

but sorry~ not affected anymore.
lalala~


just hate it when my friend is being bullied.
but then, ai ya.. 不要跟他们一般见识！
hmmmf!


hope you're feeling better!
wednesday is indeed consoling.
cos' soon it will be weekend!
think about it. :)


again.... some people are just not worth it.
and some people are.

-

sucks when your supposedly good friend is always standing on the other side and not beside you.

GEEEZ!! stop talking about it already!

Now, give me just one good reason why in the world would I want to waste my time over nonsensical immature people when it can be more well spent thinking of my wonderful boyfriend and what he is doing today.


or....

thinking of my next ktv session with pause and janice??

or thinking of my getaway next weekend?




stop wasting my time;
I was really angry, and nothing will change it.
and you should probably stop wasting your time too
and how bout try and grow up man. 
Enough is enough, too late means too late, and gone means gone.

-


and i really reallly wanna eat tt pizza again. hmmm....
finally, i can off my wake-up alarm..
doubt i'll miss my workplace..
especially now.
if only i don't have to go back, ever..
if only some other place wants me..

probably stay at home an rest.
Need more sleep, need to relax, need less quarrel..
think i have gathered enough quarrels record this month to last through the year.
haha. okay, so no quarrels for linda for few months.
need a healthy dosage of smiles too. :)

anyway, met a friend on the train today..
more of acquaintance I guess.
cuz i don't even have her number.
i just remember where she lives cos' we play together when we were young


but she was so friendly!
I forgot how close i was with her when we were in the same class.
Think I used to bully her too :X
but that was all in the past right?
I'm all nice and friendly now, hehe.
but she was so much nicer and friendlier.
haha.


so.. it was nice.
very awkward too. hmm. but genuinely nice.
one special encounter with a friend.

actually it's always like this right?
if you don't meet on the streets/trains/buses,
lots of people won't go the extra mile to keep in touch right?

or for me.
got alot of bad karma..

--

talking about karma and bad luck..!
i thought sunday was bad enough..
at work i mean.

Paper jam.. wrong machine... short of water.. no hypochloride.. fluid... short of plates..  and then forgot to throw waste box and waste water..


today..was like worse.
SA.. UBJ.. ECR... and so many positivess....

If i work tmr prolly even afb will be positive lor..

argh.. i hate my work leh.. :(

隐瞒

while.. this week had been a pretty weird week, in a way. starting to miss ana! somehow, emoing alone at my bench. have too much alone time I guess, and alone time makes me think sooo much. way too much. Especially when I can't see him for the week. :/ I get edgy when I know I can't see him soon. sucks. and i know i'm being super disgusting sometimes. bleahh..


sometimes, the words just slip out.. unintentionally..
and sometimes, intentionally, the words are kept inside.


disappointment sets in again.
when you got what you didn't expect
when you didn't get what you expect
from the people around you.

why can't people just be frank.
what's with "because you didn't ask"
how do you ask when i don't even know it happened.
geez...


so.. i believe that as you grow older...
there are more things you can't say
and many more things that you must learn to say
to the correct person.
and decide who are the ones who are just not worth your time.


i tend to say alot of random things when i'm worried.
very worried.
cos these are the stuffs that pretty much happened some time back and not at the moment
which means to say, i'm very worried!


i think it is partly due to the aura during the 7th month festival.
Very depressing atmosphere don't you think??


If only all the pieces fall into the right places.
if only.
i can only hope.

what the??

it's like you know... people organise something and then you're kinda obliged to go because you wanna give the person face, don't wanna disappoint him/her since it's only once in a while.

and so you'll go..

and then when you start asking this kind of people out, they will just refuse. All sorts of excuses you can think of, sometimes they don't even need an excuse and they just don't feel like going etcetera..blah bla bla..


It's okay when you're having a good mood and you'll really understand and understand. But when you're in a bad mood, wtf man.

and you really just wanna say "don't call me out next time! i won't give a *toot* about it!"

grrr.
and yea, it's really once in a while.
wtf man!


and it's not me la. I'm just feeling so angry for my friend. But we do get this kind of shit right? once in a while.

i'm fat and i know it.

You know you don't really have to tell a fat girl that she's fat, because she probably knows it already. So stop harping on it EVERY-SINGLE-DAY like I don't know it already.

While, I figured one fine day that it makes people happy when they make fun of other people/ criticise them/ bring them down. I guess it makes them feel so almighty.

But anyway, I know I'm fat because I have a weighing machine at home. I fucking know it so stop telling me cause' I'm not asking.

I'm waiting... for my drive for diet. Until then, I love being the fat round happy fat (again) girl yo!

rants and such

Probably about 6 years ago, I got to know this girl, somewhat cute and friendly. And we became friends. I went to her house often, did projects together, played jenga together. And it really sucks knowing she'd turn out to be so ugly and horrisome to be friends with. We haven't been in contact since we graduated, don't ask me why. It was almost as if I never existed in your world, and so be it.


3 years later, you decided to be friends again?!

Maybe.


Thought it would be nice to catch up on my life, fine. But it turns out that the only purpose of my number to you is only to "check market". When you asked if my boyfriend and I are still together, maybe you just wished that we weren't, just so to prove that your relationship lasted longer than mine. Do you even know what's my boyfriend's name??


Apparantly you only wanted to see how I am doing so that you can show to me that you're living better off than me. And that even if I am studying science, I don't do as well as you.


And after you've proven your point, you disappeared.


And you reappeared once again with the same old purpose of stepping me into the mud.


What?? Salary high is money, then my salary is NOT MONEY is it???!!!


At least I am working with nice, awesome and smart people in my lab, while you're working with the same kind of people just like you are - ugly and shitty. And all the people I know are all

NICE AWESOME AND SMART.


and you're not in any of the above.


So the next time you decide to use my number to show off your little pathetic life to me again, your name won't appear on the screen of my phone.


Yep, that's it.
Shitty huh?


You know, friends are people who will be there for you when you need them, true friends are people who will still be there for you even if you don't need them to be there. Talk nonsense with you, share everything with you together.

Don't find me only when you need me, I am not a rag.

the nice peope around

You know sometimes when you see people going the extra mile for you and doing things they don't really want to, just because of you. I thought it was really nice. But somehow I felt really guilty, and appreciative at the same time of course, when I unknowingly cause people to change.

Okay, maybe it's not because of me, maybe I just think too much.

Nice people really makes me feel bad, and good at the same time! It's a really weird feeling.. something I don't see very often.

Today I learnt from tv,

It is really scary to know the things evil people can do, but it is far worse to know a kind person doing evil.

I know there must be kindness around here, some where..There's a good and evil side of everyone? It's just which one you chose to stand with.


NAPFA next week.
damn.

what a week. of assignments

somehow over the years, assignments was shortened to just ASS,

and datasheets became dshits.


haha.


**


so many stuffs which I have not updated since exactly one week ago, and where shall I start?




Friday (18thMay)

Went to jalan jalan with nicole after school on Friday and called up a few of our class girls to come along (cause' I think both of us are very bored with just BOTH of us). And then we found out about this 'small' event which we are unaware of. In fact, most of us were unaware of it cause only 8 of our classmates were "invited".

Anyways, the reason why they were so secretive bout celebrating michael and pq's birthday was due to some political issues in our class(of which i dunno what they were either of course) and because the restaurant they decided upon was non-halal and it's unfair to this particular muslim in our class. And oh yes, the place can only accomodate limited number of people.

So anyanyways.
I wanted to go to my favourite shopping centre and so we went.


and we met that bunch of classmates.


not surprisingly coincidence cuz we knew they were there but we didn't want to join them. and we (me and nic) dunno how to refuse this really nice girl who invited us persistantly. Okay, so I was quite bored, so was nic, and so we went.


Meeting them was really awkward since we were "uninvited" in the first place. And though they keep telling us the reasons profusely and endlessly, some how I still feel that they were being very bad to us, classmates/friends who treat them like one.

So, I had quite a bit of fun there, with nicole. And the food was nice I guess. Shall go there with kiong kiong some day, hee =D

After which I wanted to go walk around at esplanade and everyone agreed. But somehow when we started walking, I realised they were going to DXO.

Alrighty.

First time to a club.
It was reallll nice. I think it's the most orderly, neatest club (though it's the only one I went haha). they have this balcony, and this really cool outdoor place which I think I can just slack and chill out and forget about the whole world.

Maybe too exaggerated, but it was a really nice place, partly because it was 9pm only? haha.


Hmm, does it sound like i had a whole lot of fun that day? It was actually an extremly bad day I had, by far the worst night I had. I didn't vomit or anything but just the people in my life which made me feel sooooooooooo bad.




Saturday (19th May)

celebrate mummy's birthday, just a cake and song and dinner.
happy 51st birthday mum~ =)


and happy birthday to Huiyi! :)
went her house at midnight. omg-

i was really really tired, but i was kinda guilty that i couldn't meet them on friday and saturday. so i think i had to go for this. and there were crabs!!


thanks to hy's dad, I had black peppered crabs that day, after soo damn long! :)


I think my dad don't even remember my birthday.


And as we grow older, mum gradually stopped buying presents or cakes for us. or even make red eggs?


ah. nvm :)


The crabs were really nice I think, hehe, black-peppered damn spicy!! I never tasted curry crabs before actually hahaa =P It was such a fun night that we went home only at 3.30am.

=)



Sunday (20 May)

went to temple with mummy early in the morning at Kovan. I was so sleepy, since I slept at 4am the night before and woke up at 7am.

-.-zzzZ


the lesson was like 8am to 5pm!


MADNESS.


and the stuffs they teach, the way they say, oh my gaawwd.


Mum was telling me, "you are learning PATIENCE today"


more like perseverance
and how NOT TO cross my leg at all for one whole day. *roll eyes*


Managed to somehow, persevere with all the teachings.


and how funny mummy sound when my aunt asked if we wanted to join the 3-day course in june and mum immediately said NO and lied that we will all going to Redang.


which is not confirmed actually.


hahas.


Got mummy to send me to kiong's house since it was on the way, and I spent the next two days hanging over at his place with him. =)



Monday (21 May)
Went back to school to check on my seeds. plantlets already! *beems*


And then I had to re make my media cause mine was contaminated :( stayed back a little longer to pour plate etc. and went back only at 3pm T.T


Then come wednesday!




Wednesday (23 May)

Class outing.


Supposedly meeting time was 3pm at east coast park McDonalds. but fucked up class decided to all think alike and act on their own and when me and kiong arrived, only our class rep was there.


Can you please imagine, 20 people and only 1 was there?!


sigh..


what made me angrier was that they actually came at 5pm!


If you guys wanted 5pm, we could have made it at 5pm instead right? It was because u freaking people wanted to play and whatever and so it was settled at 3pm for you freaking people to PLAY.


and then come 5 pm when the food came, you people decided to go PLAY while we cook.


some times I wish I was kira, Creating a better world. MY WORLD!


Haha.


However the night ended well with nicole here and everyone playing and singing or imitating funny songs like Umbrella, Girlfriend Ma tong(toilet bowl) and some michael jackson's song.

Kiong tried to mtv Candyman solo and it was damn hilarious. and nicole and nicholas mtv-ing Akon's I wanna love(fuck) you.

you should have seen them.
hahas.
**



It's Friday once again.
What a fast week.
caught unprepared, dammit.


sigh-


i havent done a single assigment for elearning. somehow I feel so compelled to finish up everything today.


kiong was sick since wednesday and I had to look after him..


While, I shall try. I will finish up my elearning before I sleep today. And visit him again tmr.



Hope his fever will go down already.
sigh-


and soon, my quizzes will be here.
=/
***



Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling


This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by


I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling


This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by


It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry


It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry


It's so beautiful it makes you want to cry


This innocence is brilliant, it makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliant, please don't go away
'Cos I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by


This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

If only I had her body.

wooo!

I reached home!

oh my goodness.

it was such a long time since i've walked home. cuz basically I am always lazy or tired, or both.
So of course the bus lah.


and i can't believe i actually walked home today, with A TANK of FISHES, under the hot sun! it was so tough it actually took me an hour to walk home from the bus interchange, and i had to pause and stop cuz it was really heavy and tiring.



the walk home was damn long and there were stares frm people who walked past, people in the buses, in their car.

Man, they must be thinking "wow, this girl really love her fishes!"

and yes, I'm thinking "damn! i must really love these fishes."



i'm so tired. feet are tired,

arms are tired,
wrists are tired,
shoulders are tired.


T.T


and i wanted to go swimming.
haha, WANTED.

-



anyway, there's this thing that was happening in my class lately and i reallly want to talk about it, cuz while.. i've got nothing to talk about and i really want to voice this out somewhere.


so, I have this person in my class called alpha (and yes this is the name he got for himself, we call him by this name. it's not like alpha, beta, charlie etc.) and he is our class rep this semester.



and i so hate him since year one. Grrr...



so this semester we want to have our class outing at wk6 (next week) cuz after which, we would be too busy with the quizzes and our final year project.



and then a few days ago we received an email frm him saying that the class outing would be a PICNIC @ EAST COAST PARK.



first of all, picnic at east coast park is the lamest thing i've heard of.eat what? bee hoon with sand? bee hoon with sea air?



and then he just said something like.... (okay, i shall paste the whole email here):

Hi all,
This is to inform you that the class outing will be held on the e-Learning week. The exact date and time are not confirmed. Please give feedback on what day you are free. Dr. Cui are free with anytime within the e-Learning week.



The class outing will be going to East Coast Park for a picnic. People will bring their own thing there and the total food will be shared. Any amount spent, please pass your list of items spent on food and pass to Aven and he will return you the money.

However, expenses on the food will only be reimburst. Other activities there, such as cycling or other stuff, CANNOT be claimed. Any questions feel free to ask.



Thank you.
~Alpha~

to summarise, every single one of us pot luck and bring our own stuffs there.


BRAINLESS COW.
with lots of shit.



i mean, come on la. picnic is like that one meh?

should at least allocate certain people to buy drinks, some buy snacks, some buy cooked food, some buy other food mah..


like that i buy sweets everyone share lor.



so, okay nvm..

what angers me most is the fact that he only consulted 3 girls in our class over this CLASS outing, and he just sent an email based on the 3 girls' suggestions.



no, he didn't discuss with the guys, and he didn't even discuss with the rest of the class.



so okay, NVM...
during this practical when we were about to be dismissed, i mentioned to him that some of us (ie. my clique) don't like the idea of picnic @ ecp, and even if they want it at ecp, why not make it bbq which is more bonding for our class.




and he said things like
"But mph(the 3 girls) suggest the idea one. you ask them lor. they want it at ecp one.."



and according to nic, he said the EXACT same thing when she gave him other suggestions, "mph's idea leh.. they want one.. you ask them?"



fuck shit la.
THE CLASS ONLY GOT 3 OF THEM IS IT?!



i got very mad and i discussed this with nic. so we actually think that having a bbq at moberly is a good plan cuz

1) East coast park is damn far for most of us and those who wanted ecp is prolly because it's near their house. wa lao, three quarter of our class peeps live at north and west lor. so SP is the most fair place.


2) We should try our the new moberly since it's new and we can't possibly leave sp telling people they we never stepped into moberly before. and of course.. we know sp like the back of our hands..




so we decided to ask everyone in our class about it,and most of them said they are okay with this idea, including mph.

we didn't ask the class rep though, simple reason, cuz since we don't belong to his class, he don't belong to our class too.

most of them said "oh okay, i'm fine with it. "


and so.
today we finally told the cls rep bout it and he answered with the stupid monotonous way,

"but mph want ECP leh."

i feel like slapping his face.
-.-

and i said " oh but we asked them arld. we asked the whole class and they're fine with it. "
idiot: "ok later we vote lor"


and it turns out that mph voted for ecp.
and ecp it was


i didn't raise up my hand at all, thinking everyone is in for Mob, and actually, i didn't know when he called for mob =X



i dunno who to be angry with.
but their reason was that class outing in school is boring, every day come back school, class outing still in school..



it would be an acceptable reason if not for the fact that we had the class outing in school two times already and especially last semester when sandra was the class rep and since they don't like school so much, why last semester our class outing still in sch and they weren't against it?


i was mad for a while.
but then, i think my purpose was just to piss the class rep off and tell everyone about our plans and not him, and not fight for class outing moberly.

i forgot that i'm fine with anything one.. hahaa..



so, ecp then ecp lor.
not that i mind...

=)

out-

spent friday with nicole after school.
though not girls' night out at clubs or what la..
i don't club anyway.

it was just pure shopping and eating and talking and shopping and walking.


i came home feeling so dejected and depressed over everything we talked about. how sucky our lives, our class, our friends, our course, our lifestyle, everything, are.


maybe i was just tired but, i was/am really still depressed. especially when we couldn't find a solution or anything we can do to make it right.


things don't always happen the way you want it to; what should u do then?
whine, groan. we did. but we just dunno what to do anymore.


everyone parted feeling so lamely pissed at our lives, that i just wanna puke.
bluack.



why am i so emo.

i wanna stay at home and rot.
don't stop me.
=/

my super pms. PERIOD.

you know people do crazy stuffs during pms.
but i still think that it's not my fault when i'm angry during pms.
no one make me angry, even if it's pms, i can't be unreasonable and be angry right.

so nvm.
maybe it's me.

so i tried to stuff myself with lots and lots of chocs.
chocolate = endorphine,
endorphine = happy and feel loved.
correct?


so when i'm eating alot and alot of chocolates and still feel angry, it is still my fault lah.

-
anyway, do you actually sell the things that people bought for YOU for your birthday?

say, we buy a blue mizuno comfy sports shirt at approx $60 then and you sell it at a disgusting price of $10 now cuz it's too short for you and saying things like My loss is your gain!


But, nevermind.
cow brained-dogs and humans are different.

-

and i have decided to remove sweets and candies from my diet totally.
so stop offering me sweets and candies.

why?

cuz sweets are harmful!
they cause Type 2 diabetes (fat = diabetes)
they can also cause kidney failure,
weakening of tooth, tooth decay,
and they are always expensive.

so they are so harmful and expensive and the only good things is because they are sweet.

i'd rather eat chocolates.


so, no more candies.
BOO!

the evil me!

i dunno what the hell is wrong with me lah

ever since that incident,
whenever i see my coursemates quarreling over the final year project issue,
i'm like laughing and gloating inside and thanking god that it's happening.

and impact is bigger for classmates.

i know what karma is and i know i might get a big fat D for my FYP after saying all these.
but some people just deserve it lah,
and i can't help but feel relieved knowing that there's still some justice in this world afterall.

i mean it's really true!
if you do nothing wrong,
you'll really have a clear conscience.
and it some what makes up your self-confidence yeah?


if not, i guess you can only rest after karma hits you back. THUD THUD THUD!



okie.

science centre later with kiong kiong!!
wanted to go today(monday), until i went online and check that they are closed on mondays!!


so we're going later.

he's so so soooooooo sweet lately.
i wanna go science centre and he'll accompany me there.
hehe.


wah.
i wanna go to SPACE next time!
i'm sure he'll be there too.
wahahaa..

i'm serious!
if it's not ten million per person lah.
otherwise,
i don't mind you knoww.....

hehe =D
days are really much happier without school's burden.


i mean of course, at the end of the day we'll be starting on our Molbio revision.

Oh well.....


SLEEP.

Glad

all the in-course assessments are done.

Attended the last session(test)
for GEMS yesterday,

And for once,
it didn't rain during GEMS!
you know it has been raining everytime during GEMS?

have been rushing for gems not because i was late,
but because it was going to rain soon.
haha


anyway,
i'd most probably pass this GEM lah.
PASS.
i don't think you can fail this module actually
=/


i got back most of the ICA papers too.
think i'll get many many many Cs and Ds.
so sad.
:(

But considering the fact that i was slacking half the time while studying for the quizzes, or i DIDN'T EVEN study for them,
I should laugh if i even pass right?
=P

so,
i shouldn't be sad
shouldn't be sad.

it'll be so stupid to cry because of bad results.
yup.



FYP briefing yesterday.
while...
it was really awkward for our class i guess.
maybe it was a fortunated thing that the 3 of us had sat infront,
and not with the rest of our class.


dr xu was saying stuffs like how friends turn to foe,
how bad (or good) FYP is for the class,
and how you'll get to know each other better.
(more like know all their negative points actually)


And you see,
it all really happened,
even before we even know our FYProjects lah!

felt really weird when he started blabbering all the bad things bout FYP,
which has all already started.

i really hope for better days in class.
:(


so the 3 of us started ranking our choices together,
hope we can get Ms.yee's project.
i guess her's is a really hot project.
dammit.

but yeah,
we still have 4 others don't we?

:)

let's just get over the exams and start our FYP.
enjoyable FYP okay?!

all they think of is school, tests, inanimate stuffs;
and totally forgot their friends, who are warm-blooded, and have feelings.
:( such bad people!!
sometimes i think they really have nothing better to do other than studying.
sigh.

Oh oh,
more good news!
the doctor suspected mum has diabetes.
and it's tested negative!

what a load of our minds.
i was so worried.
glad that everyhting's fine now.
:)

i should worry more bout having diabetes myself actually. :(

and and,
one-anniversary with kiong kiong tmr!!
HEHE. =D

and happy 19th birthday to SHERmin tmr!
i'm going out tmr lah,
so cannot blog tmr.
=X

i miss the zoo actually.
and i wanna go science centre soon!

:)
after my exams.
hehe =D

What will happen this year.

I should look at this brand new year with lots of enthusiasm
yeah?

=/

That's why,
I SHOULD.


And today's the dreadful relative visiting day.
It's actually my cousin's One-year birthday,
or you can call it her first birthday :)

Yes, i hate gossiping and gossip sessions.
i mean gossips from aunties.
AUNTIES.

u see, when me and liting gossip about some stuffs, we talk about: people, other people and what we think.

we don't fabricate some tales about people.
we DON'T EXAGGERATE.
we don't shame that person infront of everyone.
we obviously don't pinch them or slap words infront of them.

aunties?
you must believe that ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN then.

needless to say,
aunties have been trained to amplify their voice due to their constant whining, nagging, complains, and screaming "下雨了! 快点收衣服, 管窗口!!" in the house everytime it rains, which Singapore is a tropical country where raining is as frequent as you see cars on the streets.

terrible.
I freaking hate aunties.

i love taitais.
they are SOOO un-auntie.
when i say aunties,
i'm referring to people who behaves like aunties, male or female, bald, balding, gonig to bald, aged or saggy. whatever~

UGH.

enough said, not a happy day in other words.
I just walked in without greeting all the ELDERLYS.
got scolded.
i was forced to apologise despite greeting everyone back.

To clear things up,
i didn't greet them cuz mum was talking to me when i entered their house, and when done, i totally forgot to greet them lah.

my fault NOT.

i mean, come one lah. i don't greet u means i don't like you lah. (which is not true then, but true now.)


adults are SO TROUBLESOME.

why am i bothered still.

had a good laugh frm jac's blog.
one entry of which i think i totally entirely absolutely agree without any doubts.

And she sayss...

The world is filled with people who lives behind a wonderful mask of a good friend, a best buddy, a perfect classmate, and everything you dream of.

That's because they need your help.

It's true, because if you have good results, people die to work with you. If you don't have good results, nevermind, you just need to show that you work very hard, people still accept you.

WAYANG.

There're people who claims that they're your friends, but decided to leave you in a lurch because they deem that your working abilities are not up to par. No, they don't ask you why. They just automatically put you in the blacklist.

Why?

Because you either take too much MC, you MIA too much, or probably you act like a smart alec and is too rich, and these people think that you will drag them down just because of all these reasons.

They don't realise that they are afraid of letting you drag them down for a very important project, they're on the other hand slowly killing the person in question.

"Well, I think this is about what we can do."

FUCK YOU.

And to think they are planning to inform the person in question when everything is confirmed. Isn't this driving the person straight to the corner, leaving them with no choice but to group with some Tom, Dick and Harry and then at the end of the day probably sigh and say," (S)He is a nice person, but just, you know.. sighhhhh."

These people you call them friends ah?

Friends my ASS. Fuckin' hypocrites.

Sometimes these incidents make me wanna leave school quick. I wonder why I'm in this course, I must be voodooed.

And people in question, please read: I really don't care how you guys feel after reading this. Bitch all you want, isn't this what you all do all the time and pretend you don't know anything?

I'm utterly disgusted. EW.

OH and so you see,
i'm not the only one who thinks this class is shit.

how many good people can you find here in singapore?!

good couple returned my wallet,
and everything that comes with it,
and perhaps everything i thought i lost?

:)

they actually came all the way from dunno where
came up to my house
to return my wallet
wow.
thanks man.

to think there are actually good samaritans around
so great.


weather is so bad now
lightnings and thunders
i'm so scared of them..
=S

and i'm having red bean soup from daddy!
:)
so nice..
hehe.
especially in this weather. =P

lynette going US later
10 days.


bye bye.

selfish people!

why in the world did GOD create such selfish people!!!

wtf lah

i do report do so early

give u easy easy portions also

ask you do something machiam want ur life

machiam want ur entire lifetime like that.


thursday due report

tuesday also havent finish ur part

still say wanna help me do my abstract.

cannot finish i ownself do lah

even if i'm stupid at least i finished my part ON SUNDAY!

fffff.



just because ur two friends go extend time

den u also want.

I DON'T want!

i finished my report early so i can pass up ON TIME.

ON TIME; ON TIME; ON TIME.


you want to study,

I DON'T NEED????!!

you no time, i have izzit?!

i got 28 hours a day is it?

i different class from you issit issit issit?




siao eh.

extend la extend la.

first and last time i'll be doing report with this SO WEIRd.

argh!


i dunno why i'm complaining so much
but, I SHOULD right?

or is it just a small matter
no big deal
i'm making a big fuss over NOTHING.