SO VEXED.

Life has been great, and not great at the same time.

It's impossible.

Impossible how confusing my past week had been.

Traumatizing interview.

Traumatizing tuition.
(ok not so much as traumatized but more of pissed off.)

Yet I find it all so comforting having my days reading books

watching Runningman 

some Candy Crush

 having a clean home...

Great, but not great.

i never do homework.

I can't finish my assignment because it would be pointless if the world ends on 21st May 2011, and my assignment is due on 23rd May 2011, right?

But today is 22nd, I'm not in heaven, and I'm still breathing.

Does that mean I will go to hell next time?

So how? good excuse not? :D

Random.

When days are down and things turn bad, don't pull me down further or bring up my hopes. Give me a hug, and tell me this is just part of life, or just listen and say nothing at all.


Maybe things aren't so complicated. There's almost always down to just two options, and the difficulty lies in knowing ur option, making your decision, and living with it....

08.09.10

nothing much.
just thought it's an auspicious day to blog.
haha.


Life's pretty much the same, if not worse.
I always hope that 'better days' will come soon.

sigh.
i wonder when soon will come now...

 

The best things in life goes to people who wait

I remember, a really really really really long ago, lynette was telling me about relationships and stuffs. and she said "(Aiya..) If that guy really really likes you, he'll wait for you no matter what. If he can't even wait for you for 5 years, then he's not the one (can ask him go and die)"


Which is quite true, isn't it? I feel that we, or rather me, tend to care more, and pay more attention to people who walked away from our lives. I just kind of realized how hard it is in fact, now, for people to actually wait. Sincerely wait, hopefully, faithfully.

We're getting really impatient now, ey?

Time truly tells whether he/she is worth it. And maybe I didn't want to find out what happens in the end of time. Trying to put in more effort, trying to beat time. But in fact, if it's meant to happen, maybe we don't even have to put in much effort and everything will still fall into place nicely eventually. 

But, of course, you'll only wait because you know he/she is worth it too... 

While I guess what I meant to say is that we really should be spending more time on people who stayed, rather than on people who chose to leave and walked away..

Earth.

You know there's this smell after a rain, sometimes before.. It's like you smell it and you know that a rain is on the way or something.

I like that smell!!

The smell of rain.
The smell of earthy soil.
The smell of geosmin;
The smell of Streptomyces!

=D


Ok, I get crazy very often these days. weird, all the time :/

说漫长，可是又很短的一个月

when i came back three weeks ago, hmm.. i just wanted to have prata.
haha
and i did :P
and it was the one and only breakfast i had eversince i came back
lol

but i didn't know what to do thereafter though

i guess coming back..
i didn't expect much
mainly for lyn's wedding
i didn't have much great food
just great company, haha.

in a weeks time
i'd be on a plane
continue watching Avatar on the plane
on my way to brisbane
again.

can't believe i spent one month idling at home.
recuperating actually.
fell very sick over the past few weeks.
doing nothing,
but something.

it was nice, super nice..
spending time at home the whole day,
empty house,
with dad and mom.
waiting for jermaine to come back.
meeting my sisters for dinner all the time,
who knows when will be the next time the three of us can have a dinner again?

waking up without alarm,
and the day starts again.

it was nice,
seeing all my friends again,
even if just for a day,
even if it's just for that short while.
And even those that i didn't get to meet up,
i know they're doing well..

it's different.
getting the news in sg feels more real than getting the news in brisbane.
i always felt that the longer the distance the news travelled, the less i should believe it.


And.... it was nice chionging all my drama series,
mass dl shows for future,
going for my beloved facials!
drinking cheap bubble teas
eating kaya toast
slacking alone at Starbucks
roaming around Singapore
knowing my street names
knowing my surroundings...
feeling safe at home, being safe at home.

i wonder when i will be back again..


其实， 好想一辈子， 都不回来了。
就算不是在澳洲，也不想呆在这。
虽然非常喜欢这里。。。
可能就是累了，对这里的事物真的感到好厌倦。

想念的，是爸妈。
想念的，是家。
想念的，是朋友们。
想念的，是熟悉感。
可是，好像，都变得好陌生了。。。
好像已经不认识的姐姐了
好像, 已经是不一样的朋友了
好像, 已经是不认识的人了。

弄得我，都不知道怎么反应。

有没有人能告诉我到底可以跟谁说话，
到底，谁可以信任，我可以或不可以说什么呢？
是我以前瞎了，看错，看走眼
还是大家都１８０度转变了呢？
还是。。。是我？？
在这里，我好像已经不存在了。
自己或许是属于外太空的吧。。　


I'm missing something... and I don't know what...
Do i?


ANYWAYs............
enough of emo-ing.
*pui pui pui*

i still have many things undone here,
many food un-eaten,
many friends i've not met,
many places i need to go,
in this important last week!

i... should really get going with my life once i'm there.
i didn't have a new life there, it was sort of, stagnant and remained as i left in singapore.

it wasn't as easy as i've imagined it would be
to leave my thoughts and everything here in sg, and carry myself to aussie.

but i have a feeling it would be better this time. :)
I would be more unhappy and sad this time round,
but i'll definitely be happier after that too.

wish me all the best ok!
miss me, like i'll miss all of you..

:)

If you wanna see me cry,
it's on the 21st July 2010, 2110hrs flight at T3...


And....
I guess it's still too early to say good bye.
haha.
next time then.

:)

4/5

Eclipse is awesome! and funny!

I mean I like it, it's pretty good, definitely better than New Moon.
but probably not for everyone.

4 out of 5 stars!


********

Had a great time hanging out with friends and sisters over the past few days. :D But at the back of my mind, it was pretty upsetting because... I know it would be a long time later before we can hang out again, and I don't know if things will ever be the same, 2 years down the road. Before I even leave, I'm already missing them. Sigh.

yep.
i should just suck it up.
*sniffffff*

am i happy today?

sometimes.. it's really just a random thought. though it pops up quite often.

i wonder if i'm really happy.
what can i do to be happier.
what can i do to stop feeling so sad.
what are the things that can make me happy.
will i really be happy if i can just do whatever i want.
will i really be so miserable if i don't follow my passion?
am i happy today?

it's different than any other days.
i feel different.
yet something feels so similar.



没有悲伤，又怎么知道什么是真正的快乐呢？
没有失去过，也不知道怎么去珍惜。

feels happy, yet sad too...

stupid isn't it?

You know when you do stupid things when you're young, "You're young.."

And when you do stupid things when you're older,
"You're just stupid."

last week.

tomorrow is the official last day of the semester,

and i just found out only.

okay, next week i just have one more poster to present, and one more lab to attend and that's it? i have been attending and attending and i didn't even realise it's already the end.

time really *swoooooooooooosh*


did i mention i learnt how to cook rice using a pot? hehe. i was really feeling proud of myself, cos i've always used rice cooker to cook my rice, and now i did it using the stove. I just need to cook for myself, it's stupid and wasteful to use the rice cooker.

anyway, that was yesterday. Now i just feel stupid that i felt proud about that.
*blush*

cool.

it's Christmas, without the mood.
hmm.. kinda sad huh?
blogging with my new lappy!
not bad so far, quite fast. hehe.

Merry Christmas everyone!
Today's the last day to get into the christmas mood and salvage my year!

Praying for a great day, lol.
sleep time!

while walking home..

I had a fantabulous idea!!

After i quit ah.. I'm going to celebrate by wearing T-shirts and jeans for one whole week man!
Muaahahhaaha.

And then I''m gonna make a poster that says

"I love T-shirt and jeans!"  "F*U quest lab!"

hahhahahaa...


Okok. i'm not usually this vulgar.
opppss.

and it's only a thought.... the poster i mean.
maybe just not the vulgar part.. the rest.. is a good idea. haha.
i'm so really going to treasure wearing my tees and jeans...



you know once I leave, I'm really not going to look back again.
whatever happens in the last 2 months will not change whatever happened in last 2 years.

mistakes

While... one day you realise that one of you good friend is going to make the same mistake you did before. Will you.. warn her? tell her what she's getting into and stuffs..?

But knowing that you've been there before, you know she'll not listen for sure. You two will probably fall out too if you interfere too much
.
Will you let it be and let her suffer in the future?
And hope that you'll still be there when she falls..


Sigh.
Nothing.. just a random thought...

Wa rao eh

t-s-k.

surprise.

i came home thinking everyone was asleep already...



so i went back to my room, with only my table lights on... then i went to take out my ice cream from the fridge.. :)



and then...







no one is at home!



hahaha. cool.
:)
sudden urge to just play my karaoke in the middle of the night :P

While...

today was a pretty good day :)
was it for you too?

of only the happy stuffs :)

talking and blogging about happy stuffs, makes me very happy too!




pretty biscuits from Brunei... :)
not just pretty but very yummilicious too! finished in 3 days. whole of it. hehe.




And.. yeap, for those who still didn't know... i had a hair cut.
trying to live with it now. nothing i can do about it right?


during huiling's birthday party on sunday :)



and after that was the smashing guinea pig party!! haha.
okay not smashing, but.. very very very x10^10000000 cool and exciting!
with nicole, peiqi and charlotte.
her house is soo bigg! i mean her cage. haha.
mine is like an apartment only and i just brought them to a bungalow or smth.



introducing cookies (son), and donut (mummy!)




watching them run and play around for whole 1 - 2 hours.. yet simply not enough still!





and... before i end off... donut's hair was so pretty last time!
i found her 'younger' photos and she looks so.. fluffy! see what pregnancy did to her! tsk tsk..




And she used to be so tiny.. -.-" so smalll lehhh!

i miss eating SB popcorns.

cravings huh. hai ya..

and i'm back! :):) it was really fun, everything was over so quickly before we knew it we were packing our bags to leave for the last ferry.


sigh, and it's another work day tomorrow.
and work is dread. it's work, which is why it's dread.


how come it seems like everyone somewhere is being quarantined but me/my co. is not huh? :/

unsatisfied.

Have you ever felt like when you're really happy, the people around you seems to be extremely unhappy on the other hand??

Have been laughing alot over the past few days.. really starting to have some fun, feeling happpier.. But some how deep down, I still felt unhappy. Talking to different people on different things, still no where near the answers for my questions. But anyhow, seeing people around me happy, makes me really happy too! for them. haha.


Bought a new umbrella on friday. Geeezz.... how many umbrellas does one person need? I already have soo many and it still doesn't seem enough. :X


and i still think zai zai is the best hua ze lei so far. Anyway, what's next? indie vers of meteor garden??? -.-