rainbow

Today wasn't one of those bright and sunny days.

Just wanna introduce one of my fav. songs.


彩虹




omg 超有感情的。
really like this rendition, and her guitar is really awesome.





当作我最后才明白。。。

how nice. the year i turn 22.

i kinda realised that i have a lot of songs from 陶喆. i mean how can i forget that i have his 乐之路 album. which is one of his best album i must say. his songs are actually... very nice, when u're in sync. i hate 22. i dunno why. i just have some animosity with this number. (HAHA i am having animosity with a non-living number?!!!)

春天是他最爱的季节
当微风随意吹乱他的头发
他并不在意身边世界的吵杂
只想著自己生命中的变化

还有十五分钟才午休
从早到晚没有想像中那么好过
安定的日子不一定就是幸福
忘不掉他在心里做过的梦

他今年农历三月六号刚满 二十二
刚甩掉课本要离开家看看这世界
却发现许多烦恼要面对
oh yeah
他常会想望能回到那年他一十二
只需要好好上学生活单纯没忧愁
他就像一朵蓓蕾满怀希望

秋天是忽然间就来临
青春虽然有本钱可以洒脱
一场恋爱 二十二 个月就结束
才知道有些感情不值得赌

九月天气还是有点热
他想公车再不来就走一走路
他开始明白等待未必有结果
一个人也能走上梦的旅途

他今年农历三月六号刚满 二十二
刚甩掉课本要离开家看看这世界
却发现许多烦恼要面对
oh yeah
他常会想望能回到那年他一十二
只需要好好上学生活单纯没忧愁
他一直满怀希望

人生偶尔会走上一条陌路
就像是没有指标的地图
别让他们说你该知足
只有你知道什么是你的幸福

他常会想望能回到那年他一十二
只需要好好上学生活单纯没忧愁
他笑著想过未来
他应该得到幸福
多么的简单的梦
有没有实现

oOo. this song is pretty crazy.

But it somehow made me laugh.
i'm not o-effing-kay!

美男子

Because my friend is a huge fan of her.
yup.

now i'm a fat house cat.

i feel very hypnotized by this song..
and only recently it became a lullaby i needed to fall asleep peacefully.
somehow whatever happened during the day was just taken away
and i slept.

or was I just too tired?



and i found you..

nobody

addicted to nobody nobody but you~

watch the youtube! haha.

nobody nobody but you~

Cheezzzy love song

haha.
sometimes this can be so vomit-inducing.

such a sad song... :(

Take these roses off of me
Let me live, let me be
for a little while
Let my eyes
see everything and nothing in their time
I do not mind

Who'd have guessed I'd ever learn
To let the walls around me burn
and light up the hillside
My words
I ate them for so long
and nothing changed
it was just the same

And I don't know if you see me here
but I can tell you your face is clear
I will see you...

Chorus:
Forever
Forever
I will see you
Forever
Forever

Call me close once again
Call me teacher, call me friend
Just like the first time
Call my name
it echoes in the walls around this room
it's all you

And I don't know if you hear me there
when it's dark and no one cares
I will hear you...

Forever
Forever
I will hear you
Forever
Forever

And I wanted you to be
Everything to me
And now I've got to learn to carry on
And I know I cannot hide
this emptiness inside
Nothing is the same since you're gone

Send me letters from above
Send me strength, send me love
such sweet love
Sing me songs that echo in my head and in my heart
that's where you are...

And I don't know if you feel me here
I can tell you one thing is clear
I will feel you...

Forever
Forever
I will feel you
Forever
Forever
And I will hear you
Forever
Forever
And I will see you
Forever
Forever

Take these roses off of me
Let me live, let me be

會呼吸的痛

詞：姚若龍　曲：宇恒

在東京鐵塔　第一次眺望
看燈火模仿　墜落的星光
我終於到達　但卻更悲傷
一個人完成　我們的夢想

你總說　時間還很多　你可以等我
以前我不懂得　未必明天　就有以後

想念是會呼吸的痛　它活在我身上所有角落
哼你愛的歌會痛　看你的信會痛　連沈默也痛

遺憾是會呼吸的痛　它流在血液中來回滾動
後悔不貼心會痛　恨不懂你會痛　想見不能見最痛

沒看你臉上　張揚過哀傷
那是種多麼　寂寞的倔強
你拆了城牆　讓我去流浪
在原地等我　把自己捆綁

你沒說　你也會軟弱　需要倚賴我
我就裝不曉得　自由移動　自我地過

我發誓不再說謊了　多愛你就會抱你多緊的
我的微笑都假了　靈魂像飄浮著　你在就好了

我發誓不讓你等候　陪你做想做的無論什麼
我越來越像貝殼　怕心被人觸碰　你回來那就好了

能重來那就好了


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I have a friend who introduced this song to me.
“你一定会很喜欢这首歌的!”, she said.

Yes, I really like this song....
你在就好了。。。

OF EMO. LIFE. MUSIC.

yesterday.. i was on the train home
and i saw two girls hugging each other.
oh, they were kissing as well.


i know such things don't come very often but, thou shalt not stare still. it's just quite disturbing. I thought i was very open about it you know.. so, some things are really different. Saying it and actually being it. I guess, it would be harder for me to accept two guys kissing.


so reminds me of....
如果你决定跟随感觉. 为爱勇敢一次. 如果你说我们有彼此...
如果你会开始相信. 这般恋爱心情. 如果你能给我如果的事~

it's actually a very big decision i guess. to be so honest about yourself.



so anyways, *in a very 新加坡金曲奖way*

i still think it's a very scary thing, i cannot imagine if she's actually a person i know. and so, i know one more thing about myself. and i'll start to change tt mindset slowly. it's the 21st century afterall and i should be OPEN...



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mayday's album is out!
looking hard for this album and in the end, i bought two.
Hope.. i am free to go to the concert!






小时候 只要看天空 枕着白云 就觉得全世界都拥有
长大了 拥有的更多 为何感觉 到越来越匮乏越贫穷

The album is not very fantastic in my opinion.
But the 作词 is good :)
It's all about.. youth.
And their album/cd/booklet is all very..classic.
I like.
:)

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Been feeling so moody after the weekend.
Get irritated easily..
so weary about everything..
bout everyone..
somehow feeling so bad luck with everything I do.

i have so many things to do but can't finish doing them some how.

and before i know it, the weekend is over and i'm piled up with more things to do as the day draws nearer.

My thoughts are all messed up.
Feelings all numbed.
All too used to it.
Used to feelings coming and going off.
everything coming and going.


Sleepy....

Title-less

someday we'll know, if love can move a mountain.
haha.
such a lovely song..
a little bit meaningless too acutally.


Read the book (A walk to remember) but..
I can't remember if we watched that movie.
Touching.. touching.


It's Friday.
yahoo! what a week, so far.
sometimes, it's tiring to hate someone.
To use that amount of energy to be angry..
and when I did something evil and mean,
I had such a great sense of guilt.

Maybe I should just be quiet.
Maybe I shouldn't be angry.
Maybe I was being unreasonable.

But, maybe right? haha

Hating someone is bad for health.
I should just let go.

Tired-
Miss my boyfriend-
Bored my ass off-
sick my brains off-
messed up my life off-

Ya. i'm tired.. yawns.
sleep sleep.

gloomy tuesday, wednesday, and maybe thursday as well.

was taking a cab home from work on tuesday. It was such a beautiful night, I just stared out the window throughout the journey, the moon was so captivating. So...peaceful. And then I saw the uncle was driving at 120km/hr. 吓死我了！

Time is flying fast. Soon it will be november and then it will be New Year already. Ah..I've been working for 6months already, unknowingly.

Work has been so frustrating lately, I dunno why either. And I guess the leave came at the right time. Do u have the feeling like you're lost in this world, the time just pass by and then you sleep, you wake up doing really random stuffs u like, and yea.. wait for time to pass. Even at work, it seems like this sometimes. Starve until u can have ur dinner, and then the struggle with time to go home.


Oh man, what happened to my life. I used to be so happy. Now I know what it feel like having an empty heart, and trying to fill it with food. Junk food.


Surprisingly, it has been a long time since I had my last bubble tea. 3 days. haha. I used to have it everyday. Even now, i'm just drinking green tea, red tea. Nothing special.


Maybe I'm turning into a fossil soon. I like sitting down, lying on my bed, stuffing on music, smelling of the fresh air, closing my eyes...


I just watched Closer. Julia Roberts and Natalie Portman. And I never thought love/relationship could be so complicated, and easy at the same time. You can fall in love so easily with another party and then turn everything so complicated. Why has the mindset of love became so distorted. I thought it was supposed to be a really beautiful thing. And the scariest thing is knowing that the movie is portraying the reality. :(


I think I should re-watch something like The Holiday, Love Actually, What Happens in Vegas, Alot like Love. Then I'll be happy!



Yea, I think I get influenced by the media alot thanks.



Oh and I listened to Jay's new album, and it's a pretty good one.
小丑 is a nice song.
okay, actually most of the songs are nice :D

能不能给我一首歌的时间 紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远~

aww.. so sweet! :)

美丽的地球
有美丽的海洋
海洋里住着很多生命
住着很多虾！


I heard this song and I thought of Nicole, AGAIN. Do I miss her or what. 金多虾金多虾！



I don't really know who she got married with.
And after watching this video, I thought they look good together
But it wasn't him leh. some... sum41 guy. Oh well.

to...anyone reading

美丽的地球
有美丽的海洋
海洋里住着很多生命
住着很多虾！

I heard this song and I thought of Nicole, AGAIN. Do I miss her or what. 金多虾金多虾！



I wonder why I like mayday. This is why. Full of funny lame shit stuffs and still with fantastic music.


我认识了一个很有梦想的朋友
好羡慕
她有一个可以追求的梦想
她也很努力很努力地在追求着

when we say we wanna pursue our dreams, did we really do our best?　And looking at things now, I don't really know what I want. I have never hated the world before like now. Why do good people always get bullied?? And bad people always get away. why are people popularizing bad things/people/cultures. Why are human so greedy, so lustful, so never satisfied. I'm so sick of looking at this world I just wanna hide under my blanket and... hide.

What's so great about bullying someone? What good comes out from demoralising, scrutinising, ostracising each other? Why can't people just treat each other with respect and be nice to one another? What's so good about doing so much things just to prove that she's wrong? What is so great about making fun of people? No body likes all these things so why do it on other people?? Why can't you just use all these effort and energy to clear things up, make things better, instead of wasting it all on these useless stuffs.


Why can't we just... make the effort... and make this world a better place ha!

then there'll be no wars.
IF ONLY.

"they've been fighting for hundreds of years, it can't be much longer."

Do you remember this song?

I heard this song when I was in my last year of secondary school i think. Sweet. But no one to sing to. So I just...played it when i'm alone at home haha.


It just reminds me of sweet teenage love. and now, we're hitting our TWENTIES already.


And I can sing this song. haha

serenade

because tonight will be the night that i will fall for you,
over again....

hate hate hate

don't you just hate it when you're in need of the toilet and you can't find the freakin' keyssss!!!


yea me too!
Hmmm..



Blogging just died down.
Inspiration died down.
Lost of words..
and I just can't pen down my thoughts like I used to anymore.


Life gets harder as you grow.
Decisions get harder,
situation gets difficult to handle,
and your heart slowly closes without you realising it.
I'm lost.


This whole week was gone faster than I've imagined.
Monday passed with blues..
Tuesday.. Wednesday.. Thursday.. hot and cold.
Friday was black.
and today's already Saturday.



Whatever that should happen happened, otherwise it's not meant to be.
So fast but yet so many things happened.
And many things did happen very fast.

Unpredictable weather;
天有不测风云, 人有旦夕祸福


Where have I gone, what I've done.
And maybe life will be like that from then on;
Work, rest, food, politics, television, family.. and now, bills!

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(and just to digress...)

Seriously, coming home with 3 letters on your table.

First one, DBS bank. Okay... the stuffs which I've bought...

Second one, Singtel bill. (and then you just realised you have just donated $50 to the earthquake victims. FIFTY! It's totally amazing how much you can spend with a phone. You should guess how much the bill came up to.)


And then you'll just leave the third one on the desk for another day which you know will come one fine day.


goodness.
the stress you get with bills.
I shall be understanding towards my mum and her bills from now on.

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and then, you're alone in your room. And it will get so depressing.
and it's amazing how life must still goes on no matter what happens.
and you just wish it will wait for you for a while...


I'm so lost at the moment.
But I have someone with me to get lost with.
And I feel so happy to be lost with him.


It was never the stuffs he did that made me happy, the things he will buy, or the ice creams and candies and chocolates that he would feed me with. It's just.. the time that he was willing to spend on me, that he was willing to spend together with me that makes me a happy person.


Money can buy so much love, seriously!
But you just have 24hours each, FLAT.
Everybody has the same, fairness and equality! muahaha!!


Why waste your time on people who will never ever reciprocate or even appreciate the things you do for them? Why spend it on stuffs you'll regret later in your life?


Yea. spend it wisely! Can you imagine how much time people have wasted for me? Sinner.
(coughs *i'm sorry*)


Just watched Sex and the city movie, and it's such a nice, sweet, smart, cleverly funny movie. Though she was a bit "deh" for her age, but it's such a wonderful movie.


have you ever wondered why people want to cheat on their partners? I mean, both mentally and physically. For thrill? Fun? Curiosity? "test water"?


i think it's nonsense.

if you wanna cheat, either you make sure you don't get caught (or stupidly admit it). Seriously, somethings are better left not known. I prefer to be blind than to accept, while.. that's what i think, now. or you don't commit into any relationships la!



I can never be that forgiving, to have the courage to forgive, to forgive such a serious crime from someone so close. Half a year seem such a long time, but it'll take forever to heal that wound too, isn't it?


and the songs nowadays ah....
how am i supposed to breathe with no air no air no air..


as compared to all time classics 邓丽君's :
任时光匆匆流去我只在乎你.
心甘情愿感染你的气息.
人生几何能够得到知己.
失去生命的力量也不可惜

incomparable.

Sigh.

I just wrote a super long entry. really quite long. spent one hour or so writing on it. and then.. yea, it's not here. maybe it's sent to else where.

oh well.
whatever will be, will be.

Yea well, this was the song i wanted it to play together with that entry.




Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I believe that fate has brought us here
And we should be together babe
But we're not
I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
And I'll try to keep my cool, but I'm feelin'

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here

I may appear to be free
But I'm just a prisoner of your love
And I may seem all right and smile when you leave
But my smiles are just a front
Just a front, hey
I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
And I'll try to keep my cool, but I'm feelin'

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here

Here is my confession
May I be your possession
Boy, I need your touch
Your love, kisses and such
With all my mind I try
But this I can't deny
Deny
I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
(but I'm dreaming of you babe)
And I'll keep my cool, but I'm feelin'

I try to say goodbye and I choke (yeah)
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
(when you are not near aahh)
Goodbye and I choke (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I try to walk away and I stumble (hey, hey, hey)
Though I try to hide it, it's clear (say it Lord)
My world crumbles when you are not here

to my friends, and of course to you baby, this valentines.. :)

i like old stuffs you know..
old shoes..
old songs..
old friends..
old wedded couples..


Hmm.. maybe you can read this while listening to the song.
this is so cute I think.
aww.....


Girl: Do you really love me?
Boy: Of course I do.
Girl: I wanna hear you say it.
Boy: I don’t have to.
Girl: Why not?
Boy: Because...
Girl: I just want to hear you say it in words.
Boy: I can’t...

The girl started to cry softly and said: Then you don't love me...
The two continued to walk in silence. They reached the girl's house.

Girl: Why?
Boy: Do you really want to know?
Girl: (hesitantly) Yes.
He hugged her gently, kissed the tip of her nose and whispered in her ear, "Because three words are not enough..."

tsk.. excuses...... a good one though. haha.
=]

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Thank God I found, I was lost without you
My every wish and every dream
Somehow became reality
When you brought the sunlight
Completed my whole life
I'm overwhelmed with gratitude
My baby I'm so thankful I found you



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Love is not to forget but to forgive,
not to see but understand,
not to hear but to listen,
not to let go but to HOLD ON...
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