也许。。。

It's funny how I used to be so sick until a point that once I had to visit Dr.limchew 3-4times in a month.

And miraculously I got out of that phase and stayed dormant. haha. for 4 year without the help of doctors anymore, just purely to get my MCs for some minor cold and cough occasionally.


也许是时候我把身子养好了
也许我早已把健康当是理所当然了

it's high time i nurse my heath back.
exercise...
have my balanced diet..
my fruits.. my beloved fruits... =)
go for my regular swims..


shall right down some commandments as motivation:

no more cold/iced drinks.
no more ice creams.
no desserts.
no fried food as an when I like.
yea. no bubble teas. milk tea. green tea. red tea. ice-blended.
gotta say bye bye to you for at least a year or two.
until i get my health back.

will miss out on my friends. my bubble tea aunty in school. will probably ostracise me for not visiting her stall since i am her regular customer.. no one to make special bubble tea for me in school. nothing to look forward to at foodcourt1 anymore.


No more ben&jerry, no more Häagen-Dazs, no more magnums, no more Andersons, no more crepes ice-creams.. no more ice kachang, no more bobochaha, no more strawberry/mango milk..lesser and lesser makan friends.. hmmm......


:(


you know the feeling of your trachea tightened? IgE activation...mucous formation.. coughing.. innate immunity.. until the point of time you think you can't breathe, exhaling because you can't inhale.. and you'll just call the last person you might want to hear from before you leave this world?

i hope not.

take care everyone.
hope it's not my funeral the next time I see you guys,
if you guys will kindly come to my funeral actually.


A happy heart = A healthy person.
it sucks to wake up so early in the morning and not being able to get back to sleep.
so long. =)

Day 6 of being sick

I finally decided to see a doctor on Monday cause it has been bothering me for so long and I'm still not well. I actually wasted my weekends (not studying, not doing anything) and slept through it, and I am still sick.


It was really a terrible sleep I had on Sunday night. Woke up every two hours to cough and breathe. And finally Monday morning came and I went to see the doctor immediately.


Not much of a surprise, doctor says my asthma is back and I have difficulty breathing. I can actually hear my alveolar (or rather my whole lungs) wheezing and hee-ing when I breathe, so I know my lungs got problem already lor.


I told her I had sore throat and cough, and she asked if I had asthma. So I told her I had asthma when I was a child, very young. She said she will have to give me nebuliser so I could breathe easier and cure my "lung-problem".


Damn is this nostalgic. I had this flashback thing going through my mind once again, I could see myself. I was sitting on a clinic chair, or rather a kid's chair, with a mask across my face. I thought it was an oxygen mask then. I could smell the medication and the air rushing through my nose. My maid sitting beside me, and the door was not closed and stangers from outside tried to peek in and look at me, the little freak.


I hated that thing ever since.


But it made better. I never thought I would use that thing again. Now I know that thing is called a nebuliser and not an oxgen mask, ha!


So just to give you a picture on what is it about, tada :

So once again, after ten long years, I used the nebuliser again. Same smell, I think it's the same medication.

Anyway, it is actually a medication in the form of vapour. There is actually a little tube of chemical which vapourises and I had to breathe in as per normal. It is used to open up my alveoli and make it less tight.


So I was sitting down there, almost like this kid, doing the same action, hand holding the mask close to my face, and breathe...... for like 15 minutes?


I felt better, immediately. But I'm back to when I was a kid again. No cold drinks, no ice creams. And no bubble tea!! :(


I rested on Monday as well, and started studying for ACC only yesterday, of which the exam is today lah... =/


I would say, it's not that I don't know how to do, but sometimes I feel that teachers should put themselves in our shoes and understand that we, teachers and students, have this thing called the language barrier and I really can not understand what they are asking or where the question came from.


So hopefully I answered what they wanted, more or less. I was too tired to even write. Bleahs..


Talking about teachers, I am really getting sick of my FYP lecturer who does nothing but keep hinting that we're lazy and we're not doing our stuffs when he IS the one who didn't tell us what to do.


I asked when we need to feed the fish?
He say must quarantine for 1 week.
Ok, so don't need to feed.

One week later, another batch of fishes came.
so he say must quarantine for 2 weeks.
OK lor, don't need to feed again lor.


Ask him again, WHEN WE START feeding the fishes?!
He say he'll tell us.


I ask the other group whether the teacher told them when we can start feeding the fishes, they say "Don't know leh.. He say he'll call and tell us again".


And then now, the other group called us and say the teacher want us to call him. (like wtf he don't know our number cannot call us meh? why must call other group to tell us.)


And then he started saying things like, "where are you?! why you not here, why you haven't feed your fishes? the other group knows! how come you're not here?! the fishes are here, what are you waiting for, blahhhhhhhh blahhhhhhhhh blahhhhhhhhhhh. "


I shut my ears.


Seriously, ENOUGH .
You're just biased and you just ignored this fact that you actually told the other group and not us.

FULLSTOP.