说漫长，可是又很短的一个月

when i came back three weeks ago, hmm.. i just wanted to have prata.
haha
and i did :P
and it was the one and only breakfast i had eversince i came back
lol

but i didn't know what to do thereafter though

i guess coming back..
i didn't expect much
mainly for lyn's wedding
i didn't have much great food
just great company, haha.

in a weeks time
i'd be on a plane
continue watching Avatar on the plane
on my way to brisbane
again.

can't believe i spent one month idling at home.
recuperating actually.
fell very sick over the past few weeks.
doing nothing,
but something.

it was nice, super nice..
spending time at home the whole day,
empty house,
with dad and mom.
waiting for jermaine to come back.
meeting my sisters for dinner all the time,
who knows when will be the next time the three of us can have a dinner again?

waking up without alarm,
and the day starts again.

it was nice,
seeing all my friends again,
even if just for a day,
even if it's just for that short while.
And even those that i didn't get to meet up,
i know they're doing well..

it's different.
getting the news in sg feels more real than getting the news in brisbane.
i always felt that the longer the distance the news travelled, the less i should believe it.


And.... it was nice chionging all my drama series,
mass dl shows for future,
going for my beloved facials!
drinking cheap bubble teas
eating kaya toast
slacking alone at Starbucks
roaming around Singapore
knowing my street names
knowing my surroundings...
feeling safe at home, being safe at home.

i wonder when i will be back again..


其实， 好想一辈子， 都不回来了。
就算不是在澳洲，也不想呆在这。
虽然非常喜欢这里。。。
可能就是累了，对这里的事物真的感到好厌倦。

想念的，是爸妈。
想念的，是家。
想念的，是朋友们。
想念的，是熟悉感。
可是，好像，都变得好陌生了。。。
好像已经不认识的姐姐了
好像, 已经是不一样的朋友了
好像, 已经是不认识的人了。

弄得我，都不知道怎么反应。

有没有人能告诉我到底可以跟谁说话，
到底，谁可以信任，我可以或不可以说什么呢？
是我以前瞎了，看错，看走眼
还是大家都１８０度转变了呢？
还是。。。是我？？
在这里，我好像已经不存在了。
自己或许是属于外太空的吧。。　


I'm missing something... and I don't know what...
Do i?


ANYWAYs............
enough of emo-ing.
*pui pui pui*

i still have many things undone here,
many food un-eaten,
many friends i've not met,
many places i need to go,
in this important last week!

i... should really get going with my life once i'm there.
i didn't have a new life there, it was sort of, stagnant and remained as i left in singapore.

it wasn't as easy as i've imagined it would be
to leave my thoughts and everything here in sg, and carry myself to aussie.

but i have a feeling it would be better this time. :)
I would be more unhappy and sad this time round,
but i'll definitely be happier after that too.

wish me all the best ok!
miss me, like i'll miss all of you..

:)

If you wanna see me cry,
it's on the 21st July 2010, 2110hrs flight at T3...


And....
I guess it's still too early to say good bye.
haha.
next time then.

:)