Oh my my. Such an overwhelming feeling reading my past few posts. Was it 6 months ago when I was rushing to get results and busy writing my (mini) thesis? It seems so distant, yet all the emotions of those times are still vivid in my mind.
Oh well, everything just seems like "done with" now. Another phase of my life. I'm glad I went overseas, seriously. There are countless of people I know who just feel that Australia's degree is 用钱买的文凭 (can be bought with money), I feel that one should never live their life in regrets. The things I've learnt, I feel, can never be learnt in an environment I'm so comfortable with and used to. It's just an unexplainable entrance into adulthood? I've realised I wasn't as 'adult' as I thought I used to be, and I wasn't as adaptable I thought I was. I mean, how 'adult' can one person be?
There were so many reasons why I went overseas to study. I'll admit that I am quite an escapist. I tend to flee when a problem arises, and when I left I was trying to untie myself and be free from this unhappy place (at that time).
One thing I've learnt, was definitely the fact that "things could have been worse".
There's no escaping when you're in another country. I mean, you're escaping from the place you're escaping to? It just feels weird, the way I see it.
So, everything went pretty well. Started off with a bad patch, but everything went well eventually. I won't be greedy, I am indeed happy with the way things are right now. Friends, family, job (ok, too early to say).
Yes, happiness is such a rare commodity, try and do something and not wait for the problems to fix themselves. The trickiest part I feel, is those that you can't control, like Feelings, Luck, the people you are forced to work/live with.
I'm not sure if I've made the right move by ridding off the people that were making my life horrible, in my definition, people who are not worth it. There was a choice, where I think I could have probably changed myself and accommodate them (together with all their nonsense and shit), but I chose the easy way of just cutting them off. Of course I felt it was the right thing to do then, but sometimes there's 'what ifs' going through your mind, and I wonder if my life would have had been any different. Can I be any happier or contented as I am now?
Ok I am so sian of writing emo stuffs now. i'm gonna stop.
So.. was having a shitty day at work yesterday, kept doing all the wrong stuffs. Not that it was fatal, but i'm just disgusted at how incompetent i am. What I hated most is people getting blamed because of my mistakes. Eventhough I do get scolded after that as well too lah.
Decided to go sing. or scream, rather. Quite therapeutic.
So, i'm going to share the 5 things that I tend to do when I need to 'get high'. in order of how serious things are. Not sure if I have this list once upon a time..
1) Bubble tea. It's the sugar high, although I order 25% sugar level now. Effect is almost instantaneous. Tip: Always get the best bubble tea in the area, like duh?!
2) Chocolates and coffe. Helps increase the level of endorphins in your body. Think chemistry! May cause increased heart rate and jittery. So.... not ideal before exam or interview.
3) Shopping. My personal preference is shoes. I get frustrated shopping for bags, and clothes. So it might backfire, sometimes. Buying shoes is just easier.
4) Kbox. Sometimes you just need to scream it out, or just enjoy singing! I think singing is a good stress reliever!
5) Facial. This is tricky, but it works. Things are always better when you feel prettier. Statistic shows, that 87% of people feel more confident when they look prettier. true story. *hahahahaha*
Ok buh bye.
maybe i'll post some pictures next time.
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