Existentialism

2013 seems almost too long ago

I couldn't exactly pinpoint what is wrong with my life.
It always seemed so right at that time, and when I look back, I would probably have lived it differently.

It's gonna two more years before I hit 30!
It is scary.

To be honest the past few weeks, or months, I was feeling slightly nonchalant about life, having no idea why people live the way they live, when everyone will eventually end up dead anyways.

What? Are you going to being your hobby to your grave? Are you going to bring your money and fame and glory to your grave?
Death is only meaningful for the living. when you're dead, why do you care?

For the living know that they shall die: but the dead know not any thing.



Well, anyways, the thought of dying scares me recently. Not that I'd die. Of course I'll die.. but that the thought of some one who could just cease to exist, that scares me. That we could live a full 60, 70, 80 years of life, and then one day, you will not be here.


Some people regret not leaving a legacy..
Some people regret not having a continuity (ie. children.. who eventually will die anyways right? but that's not the point. )
Some people regret not LIVING (whatever that means).


What would you like to do in your short span of life?