i found my old stuffs.

and i realised just how much times i have been feeling like this already.
countless.
over the past few years.
I never realised that I was actually this unhappy so often.
And I wonder why I always let it happen all over again...


what a slow learner I am.
what a huge damage done. 
and now, it seems irreparable already.

And it seems like all I can do now is to leave it and let it rot and decompose..
What did I do to myself..