To live for happiness

Is your life determined by fate? or by yourself?

Fate has got so much to do in your life. Like they always say, fate decides who you meet in life, but only you yourself decide who remains. Is it true? Isn't it also fate that will decide who will remain true by your side as well?


To describe what kind of life I want in general, I would say.. a happy one. While, who doesn't? But you know the thing about life, it's UNPREDICTABLE. You'll be surprised to hear that there are people who are leading a life of wealth, a life of power and control, a life of luxury, a carefree life...and some people just wants to live to live, to just keep going on and not even knowing that they're going no where. To keep earning and saving money to be buried into their graves?!


Of course happiness is so...subjective. And people who live for money would of course be happy living for money. But to live for money...to live in this world because you want to make, not just enough, but to keep making (earn, steal, rob, cheat, crimp and save)money until the day you die, you feel that you've lead a good life because you've made enough money(...to bury in your graves..)


But because different people have different perspective of happiness, it kind of saddens me. Why is people always seeking for happiness in circles and circles throughout their lives, never contented with what they have, never cherishing whatever they have. It's something that we always have but we always thought we'll never find our happiness. Why??

Why is life so full of contradictions. So full of uncertainties. So full of queries and guesses. So full of blames. so full of misunderstandings. so full of miscommunication. So full of squabbles. So full of so many bad things and so little of the good things. And there I go, being sooo super unhappy with the world.


Why can't everyone just live happily together? Why can't people with different goals in life live together? Different roads? Accommodate. 迁就. But how far can we give in to a person?


And in case you're wondering my definition of happiness, what I mean by a happy life... I guess I need my other half by my side, a hearty family, dependable friends, a roof over all our heads, a nice meal on a round table with everyone, nice TV shows to watch together, nice places to hang out together..nice food to eat over our conversations.. honest feelings, honest thoughts. that's about everything. so much! but, it's quite a simple dream I think.


Maybe I watch too much TV or what, but it's true what they say sometimes.. It's easier to handle a ghost than to handle a person. Not just 女人，but 人的心 海底针。。。


I'm being an emo kia once again.


So let me just announce a damn happy news I have in my life. My donut.... is pregnant! :) :) :) Actually it's not really confirmed but her butt (confirm it's a HER and not a HE if can be pregnant right) is kinda pumped up and the fat bum just gives me (and kiong) a feeling that she's pregnant. And you know what, I just thought of this. I'm going to bring a few pregnancy test strips from my lab and see if it works on animals. DON'T TELL ANYBODY (ELSE) about it! hehehe.


Yea, Jermaine and I are pretty excited about it. Thinking of bringing her to a vet for a check up. But that's being so unfair to rexy because he has been with us for more than 2 years already and hmmmm, I've never even thought of bringing him to a vet. Even after all the psychological trauma he must have had in his 2 years with us (muahahahha. it's like living with the two evil sisters. But I'm sure we did our best tho).


So anyway... I just wonder what the babies will look like. Long hair from donut or shorter hair from rexy.. But we're quite curious to find out if the babies will have the black patch on their right eye hahaha. Since both of them have it at the same place ma.. maybe offspring also like that.


It's such a happy thing knowing of the arrival of a new born (yah, animals and pets also). ETD (expected time of delivery hahahaha) would be 2nd week Aug, my guess. Kiong's guess is 2 babies, mine is 3!


I'm sure they'll all be so cute man. Can't... wait! :)


and it's so kind of Jermaine to buy choya back for me at the airport. I only told her once to buy for me if she has free 'slots' at duty free shop. It's a different kind, traditional honey one. Actually I've only tasted Choya once and it was so nice! Even tho it was just once but other than baileys and kahlua (all creamy kinds I'll like it I think), I like Choya the most I think. And it's not even very alcoholic so.. I like! :) :) Don't you find people who reeks of alcohol irritating and disgusting?!