22

that's the number of days left till the last day of exam.
what should we all do on the last day?
thinking bout it just makes me HAAAAAPPY.

but its kind of sad when we graduate you know.

everyone around seems to be so eager to go into uni (or maybe army too?) and get their degrees and honors, and I wish I could be so enthusiastic bout it too. I'm..... sick and tired of studying my life out. hate looking at those notes that sucks my brain dry. Bluaks. start learning bout love and humanity instead peeps!

Which means to say, I am going to work! :)
Which i can proudly say actually, I am quite eager to find the perfect one. Enjoyable.. challenging.. non-politics..
perfect.

Yea, actually it is the pay I get from it that will determine how happy I will be, LOL. And yes yes... Hard to find jobs ah.....


Hm.. and Jermaine just told me she might be going overseas to study too, just one year of study to get her masters with her adv. diploma cert. And I told her to go ahead. Well.. really good for her right? :( I'll really really miss her, ONE YEAR LEH! :( And I'll be stuck alone at home. no more sister to lend me a shoulder, no one.. no one no oneee.....


AH! anyway, I just hope everyone just get what they want in their lives. But know what you want first la. A short-worthwhile-life is better than a long-boring-life I think! My boring life is nice too actually haha. I've always been stumped at this question on what I want in my life. For 19 years man. And lately, thanks to all the "what do you want to do after poly ah" questions from everyone, I realised what I want....... is a family.


Yes, A BIG FAT HAPPY FAMILY.


maybe not in the near future... still a long way to go i guess. but since a long long time ago I've been just dreaming of what my family would be like next time and stuffs. And I think I just want to complete it by making them come true one day (I think kiong is going to freak out after reading this=( ), and yes a perfect one too. :)

beautiful I think. :)

you know people keep saying that good life comes from your studies (education would be a better word actually). better grades for better jobs and better life. And I know everyone must have had the feeling of "dunno study for what, next time also won't use..." (as in GMP to be specific). Yea... why am i studying so hard for, my goal in life doesn't require a Masters or PhD cert.

Yea.. maybe some day I will have the motivation for study again. we'll see... but right now, waiting for weekends and holidays seem to be the reasons why I am living my days, and completing my diploma is why I go to school for.


I mean it is not even lazy or what that I don't study. It's just.. what's the point. and I don't think studying so much will help. The reasons for studying isn't right. It's like studying to have good jobs instead of studying cause' you LIKE IT.


It's weird, everything is weird.


and i can't seem to study for the quiz tmr.. ONE THICK notes.. and many many many many many to memorise. It's such a chore!


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You know I had this dream...I met myself in that dream, as another person, someone invisible maybe cause I dunno either (no mirrors in dreams, haha. can't see myself). Can't rmb much after that, just the gist of it. But it seems interesting.

What do you think you will feel if you met yourself on the streets? would you like her? would you think she's ugly? would you think she's a bimbotic bitch who walks like a duck? would you hate her...


I think I hate myself, sometimes...
(the sentence applies which every place you put the "sometimes" at)