life can be so unpredictable

Just got back from school..
Just weighed my fishes and made the feed for next week.


Feeling tired, down, pissed and sweating.


Was late for the first lesson which was supposed to be at 9AM and I thought it was 10AM instead. But the teacher was really nice, she gives a better first-impression compared to other lc lecturers. Me on the other hand, left her a bad impression of myself I guess.


Can you be mad at your friends?
Sometimes people get really angry, and I think to myself there are just reasons which you don't know and maybe people don't want to tell you.

There's a reason to every thing that has happened, obviously people don't like to do wrong things right? So I always thought there must always be a valid reason on the things he do (which he always do them wrongly of course).


But now I think, understanding may not be a good thing towards these kind of people. Give an inch and he'll take a foot (direct translation la.) I just hate it when people don't bother. Yes so what if people understand? You know it's wrong, you don't do it again. But because people understand, you think it's ok to do it again, wrongly.


You don't bother about school, you don't bother about your friends sacrificing things for you while you go play and get sick and don't do work. And when you're well you don't apologise and continue to play until you get SICK and still don't do work. You don't bother about other people's feelings, take it for granted the people that actually want you to do well.


It is disheartening to know this kind of people. And I am getting really sick of trying to tell everyone maybe he has his reasons. Put effort in the things you set out to do, honour your promises, take responsibility for your actions. Don't just whine like a baby and think everyone else IS YOUR MAID.


I think maybe it's the tapioca that's making me sick and groggy. I am feeling sick of the things I do for others. Sick of the people I see and sick of people treating me like dirt. The expectations and trust were there, and disappointment follows..



Sometimes I really don't know what I am doing, what I am supposed to do, what I should do, what I can do, what I want to do. So many thing which I want to say but didn't, and so many things which I didn't want to say but did.

Have you experienced these kind of feelings before? :(


First week of sch ends here.
And I'm already feeling sick.
Sick of the people that is.