impending last weekend

yeah. I cannot believe this is going to be my last holiday weekend. AHHHHHHHHHHHH! My break is really so pathetic :( Half the things that I wanted to do is not even done and I'm only left with 3 days. And that 3day is meant for my REPORT, which I have to show to the teacher on Tues already. And talking about the teacher just makes me mad again!

And I shall do myself a favour by not dwelling and blog on how unfair he still is.


Many fishes died today, and it was this helpless feeling that I have which makes me really down today. All we could do was just to pray that they don't die on us, hope that they can adjust back to the environment and survive. We couldn't do anything.

We don't know why they die, and whatever came out of the teacher doesn't help a bit. Okay, which is why we all hate him right?



You know yesterday I was just having one of those chats with Jermaine. And I surprised myself at how much I hate SP. She asked me why my results are so bad and why is it I don't have the motivation to study and to better.

And I just told her "I hate that school. I hate SP."


And I told her how much the teacher sucks over there. How 90% of the teachers show favouritism towards students, towards classes, towards stages, towards courses.

She told me that it's the same everywhere, if I can't stand it in SP, I can't stand it anywhere else.


But that's not true! how come I don't see juying teachers doing these sort of stunts to us huh. I mean even if they show favouritism, 90% of the time they really care about us and are really concern about our studies.


I know, I hate my chem and Chinese teachers la.


But if you think they are bad, you should see these biotech teachers, they are really terrible! Even even if they are not lecturers and just are treated as a normal people, they really really have bad values and all.. they bitch, they gossip, they despise you, and they can just really mark you down for your exams just because you're always late, always talk back to her.


Totally unjust.


And I know it's not totally true, I just hate the feeling whereby I feel that I've done well because of the teachers. I know it's not them, we all know that. But sometimes people may just have this mindset that teachers in sp are really good that's why their results are good and if you want to have good results you should go there. I hate the idea of putting my hardwork into other people's credit, especially to those bad and lousy lecturers.


I know, I am lazy and I really don't want to study for my exams. The bad teachers are just one of the reasons. But it's amazing why sometimes teachers can be the motivation for your hardwork while some just puts your interest off entirely on the subject.


And I just complained what ever I have on the system there, the whole entire sp system, how I hated everything, for a good whole half and hour I think. And she just said, "actually, when I was in SP things were not that bad.. our lecturers teach very well and they don't put the students down like that."

And I agree, chem teachers in SP are really good at teaching, I kind of like chemistry because of them.. I got interested in chemistry because of this teacher in year one. And when he didn't teach us anymore, the rest of the teachers teaching chem they were just good at teaching.


I think chem teachers are more compassionate. They are quite afraid to stress us in case we commit suicide and jump (from building, from mrt station platforms haha).


So her last statement just reminded me of how suay I always am. I get bad bosses, I get bad schools, I get bad teachers, I get bad timetables, bad holiday breaks, bad final year project, bad fyp supervisor, bad itp, bad itp bosses.





And it just reminds me of Just My Luck....