As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility***********
And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things that I've done things that haven't occurred yet
and things that they don't want to take responsibility for
I'm sorry for the times that I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I'm sorry for the times that I had to go
I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I disrespect
I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry I'm not always there for my sons
I'm sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can't sleep at night when I am not there
Because I'm in the streets like everyday
I'm sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl
I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
I'm sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn't know what to do
I'm sorry that you had to go and sell those bags
Just trying to stay busy until you heard from dad
When you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though pops treated us like kings
He got a second wife and you didn't agree
He got up and left you there all alone
I'm sorry that you had to do it on your own
I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
I'm sorry that your son was once a thief
I'm sorry that I grew up way to fast
I wish I would of listened and not be so bad
I'm sorry that your life turned out this way
I'm sorry that the feds came and took me away
I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
I'm sorry that it took so long to see
But they were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I'm sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani
I'm sorry for the hand that she was dealt
And for the embarrassment that she felt
She's just a little young girl trying to have fun
But daddy should of never let her out that young
I'm sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
In a 21 and older club they say
Why doesn't anybody want to take blame
Verizon backed out disgracing my name
I'm just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I'll take that blame
Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
I'll take that blame from you
And you can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me
I was just listening to this particular song, 3 times consec.
Now I know why he likes this song.. (but 13 times consecutively? =P)
My dad and mum.. promised that we would go mt faber yesterday to see those lanterns display and celebrate mooncake festival.
Jermaine took the camera out with her for her outing with her colleagues , so that means I would be going Mt.faber with no photos to take, which is pretty pointless to go la. But still, I stayed at home to go out with my parents!
And then they decided not to go.
cause dad doesn't want to go and he wants to stay at home.
And they only told me in the evening when I could have gone to vivo city or what to meet my baby. HMMfh...! =(
And this is not the first time they decide to plan things and put them off last minute.
The other time they said they wanted to go m'sia for a day, so I made myself free that day. And then dad don't want to go again and they only told me in the morning when we're supposed to leave already.
=(
So then I msged kiong and told him I am pretty angry with my parents cause they could have told me earlier right?! I could have done so many many things if I didn't have to wait for that thing. I have... little tolerance, very petty lah :( But then... grrr.
He msg me back after all my grumblings and rumblings and rantings:
dear dear don't angry, I bring you go next time I got my licence yea. Promise... :)
I think it is so sweet of him :)
But I only realise like a few hours later when I went through what he said again. and by then, he can't talk on the phone anymore :( I'm so stupid cause I just kept being angry with my parents and didn't really bother bout what he said and the conversation just ended with, once again, my grumblings.
When I realised, I'm like smiling under my pillow and trying to knock my head with it.
And I have only myself to blame for being so so slow and retarded. (and you can put the blame on me... you can put the blame on me.. )
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