Motivation & Perseverance .or just do what you want

RUNNING really relieves stress, though temporarily, but it does work. But running when you're stressed is not an effective run. Cause I think my mind was so fully occupied with those nonsense and stuffs, that I used up too much energy. And I kept stopping for breath and energy. Hah! At least that's what I think.


And yes. I went running today, around my neighbourhood.


It's scientifically proven that running at night is slightly harder due to the drop in the rate of photosynthesis, and some plants totally cannot undergo dark stage photosynthesis. Competition for oxygen increases, and CO2 production increases, as quoted from liting.

But I don't know why no one believes me when I said this.
Shrugs. I'm so unbelievable. tsk.


Running requires a lot of perseverance. I hate this word, I learnt it cause' it is one of the words for my secondary school's vision/motto/philosophy.


Perseverance. Easier said than done. How many times have you studied and gave up cause' you were too tired and can't absorb anymore? PERSEVERE is the word! But I don't think any sane person would actually do it. And how many times have you attended this lesson which is so boring that everyone is this lecture are either sleeping, half asleep, or doodling away? You should have persevered! Haha, like anyone would.


I dunno, I'm lacking in motivation; to study, to do my reports, to run. I'm lacking perseverance to do the exact same things, while.. cause' I haven't really started doing them, sigh.


If I can do everything according to what I want to do, life would be so much easier eh? But there are always rules and guidelines to follow. If I don't exercise, I will be unhealthy and my life will shorten. If I don't finish my reports, I would kenna from classmates, I cannot pass my diploma, I cannot settle down.

Most importantly- if I don't sleep well, I would have eye bags and my skin regenerates lesser and slower and there would be more free radicals and thus more pigmentation and BAD SKIN. Ugly face, ugly skin now means I would be uglier in the future. Means everyone would stay away from me and I won't get married, won't get job. And even if I got a job I won't get a promotion cause everyone is staying away from me.



VAIN?!
c'mon lah. Even if you're not pretty, you cannot be ugly in this society can.

Taking good care of what you have now is not vainity, it's insurance for your future and you'll reap what you sow.

FULLSTOP. I'm not vain. BLEAH.