when everything revolve around school

happy with myself

i finished molbio datasheet myself,
all by myself.
even though it's not individual datasheet,
i'm rather contented.
i actually got familiar with my notes already.
haha.

even though i spent 1hr on it;
time cannot be bought back.
:(


just to add on before i finally start on my bia report,
i'm really sick of deciding whether or not to go thailand.

you see the dilemma?
you don't right?
it always seem like no one understands,
no one bother listening to me and shutting me off before i even start.
:(


why can't mrgoh just tell me where's my placement
why can't i tell myself what to do any more.
:(

anyways,
i can't believe once again,
the year is ending.

tmr is the last session of molbio prac,
met bio prac is finished,
and so is bia
as well as anatomy&phys.

yes.
all pracs finished.
exams in less than 2mths.
minus away the christmas break,
1month.

that's super fast.

and if i even pass my itp and this semester,
i'm in year 3 already!
preparing for my final year project.


and soon..
soon soon..

i'll graduate;
i'll work;

kiong will go army;
kiong will finish army;

we will get engaged;
we will get married.

we will buy house.
we will live together everyday.

we will have kids,
we will have grand kids,
and then we will die.

now..
seem very far away already right?
hehe..
that's my point.

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why is it that when i want to like her,
i ended up hating her more.

why is it that when i hate her,
i ended up wanting to forgive her.

why is it that when i have forgiven everything,
i end disliking her,
once again.

why is it when i'm disliking her,
i hate myself at the same time.

why is it that i want to be friends with her
but she is obstructing it herself.

maybe, just maybe,
i was the one who let it slip...
?